<
Diyanah Abdullah,lucky 19
18th April, Aries
Asc, TP
Laughters and smiles makes her world go roundd
She's intertwined like a ring with Neutron

"We must never confuse elegance with snobbery." -Yves Saint Laurent.

It's a week before i leave town and enjoy a splendid journey with the family. I'm really excited about it and yes, i really cant wait to pack my bag and just go and enjoy. I've yearn for a vacation for months at least. If only i could pack him along, then it would be better. Better in all ways as i wouldnt have to worry and keep thinking how things are for him when I'm really enjoying my days there. If only, i could pack you along too....

To be honest, after the many many many trips that ive been around the world, i have never read up about the country before the tripp but this trip is different. Ive read all necessary readings and make sure that i know where to get good food and at least know the location of the shopping centres there. Being the typical biatch* But i guess this tripp would be different as it will focus more on sight seeing and the enjoyment of driving. If only, i have passed driving then maybe it would increase the adrenaline in me slightly higher.

The boy has been behaving well at least for the remaining days that he will be seeing me till im offf for 10 days for the trip. i will definitely miss that particular other half and yes, im cracking the brain cell to get the perfect gift for him. Still, i have none in mind. This also applies the same for all. Oh wells, maybe authentic cadbury chocolates since cadbury originates from new zealand. Oh my. if its possible, i want to watch at least a rugby match of the all blacks team while im there. at least i can recite the hakka with them. hahha. soo cool la.




moving on about the tripp... im just taken back by the kind of poeple that surrounds me lately for at least 6 hours of the day and how blood sucking it maybe sometimes when you know that someone is nice with you because in need of some favour and all crap. i just take the plastic anymore like seriously and i dont wish to be the slave that nodds the head at every command that is given. i know you have the authority but i think that shouldnt be the way. im done with that and i feel that there should be more respect between each other. another thing would be people realising their own barrier that they put upon themselves and always being in denial about it at all times. seriously, you should know where you stand and being a friend does not mean girlfriend and really please don't involve a third party in any case for the grabbing of attention of that particular ugly duckling. really, i did not sign up to be part of some love triangle of yours and im clearly not interested. know your purpose and never use your friend to benefit you personally as it clearly reflects the kind of person you are. nevertheless, she isnt to blame either when things does not go your way especially. if that happens, then i would say, its just not your luck.

i mis the boy. i mis the boy. tmr would be another day with him, ima and her oother half. today was dinner, so wad tmr's plan?
Oh dearie me, I am the real essence of style.

Knowing the date is getting nearer and nearer, it seems that we are getting closer and closer. Oh my, then it would be a abit more difficult for us to part for 10 days later. ouh baby, dun woriees, for im reseaching about international calling cards and where i can find them. only through this medium, i could hear your voice. * cheesy i know.

Anyway, meeting the boy again just makes the day especially when he offers pick ups after work then dinner and a safe ride home. i just enjoy rides. really. like how i wish i could ride my own some day and then we could ride together. * hahah. perasan i know. To plus up the day, the other half's twin joins and yes indeed, it makes the day merrier especially in between study laughs and nonsensical conversations. it funny when you tries to make similar comparisons between us but sometimes those comparisons are hidden facts that we did not see. oh wells, it applies for the "twins" as well.



Oh dearie me, I am the real essence of style.

In the working world, people do come and go and some will come and go as they wish without thinking about the inconvenience of others. how angry i can be with the other person, still there's nothing that can be done but to just extend my blessings for the person's future job and may he be blessed with more patience in life. drama? i know.


TThe wallet broke as the hook doesnt seem to work anymore. SInce it doesnt clipp and safely keep the cash in it then i would consider it spoiled. anyways, it more like im dying to get a new wallet. i wanna get de PRADA but it is still in the saving process. i guess i will bare with the unclippable hook for the mean time while the pockes awaits for piliing cachings at the end of the time. though it is end of the month, sometimes, you just need to wait longer due to inefficient and super-slow-human-employeees-service-providers. thus, my wallet has to wait. hmmm....


I miss the boy.Its been 2 days since i last saw him and im alreadyy missing the other half. how sweet. Oh wells. i wanna see that boy again if possible soon. that colour ful boy that colours my world. :) hhaha. wHEEREE IS MY PUMPKINS???



Oh dearie me, I am the real essence of style.

As beautiful the day was today, i hoped mine has happened the same way too but unfortunately some events are so coincidental or they are just meant to happen. she finally caught me red handed and yes indeed the long, decision making lecture that's filled with a mixture a of emotions just made me blank. as blank as i can be. stuck in between options of two opposites, deciding which i should follow. nothing could stop me loving you and yet nothing will make me feel complete without them in my life. i need the both of you in my life to get things working for me. these are things that made me feel complete as a person too and the only thing that i have asked from you would be your utmost understanding and accept things as it is. there's nothing you can do to make the changes in my life for I'm very much happy about everything that has been happening. honestly, i have been enjoying every minute of my life till you had to remind me again about the real deal with such a situation. it wass soo tak perlu eh.

gathering all the strengths that I'm left with, i just took the courage and left the boxed mobile without any form of expression. i left speechless and without a word to even express what i has in mind. to me, i guess it was all just pointless. the only thing that im looking forward to do was waiting to release the tension in me. waiting to pour out to anyone, anytime and anywhere.

the boy was always the saviour. he just made me feel better.
hes just the best thing that has ever happened to me and i want this to keep going for as long as i breathe. no one can ever be a replacement to you and you are truly my other half. i love you.




Oh dearie me, I am the real essence of style.

It is over 7 months of procrastination and finally i have decided to make a come back and start typing away the life story in the outlet of shared emotions. how nice.

Since 2010 came around, life has never been better. oh wells, i pray for more beautiful and happier days ahead with family, you, friends and everyone that has crossed my life path. i really think i need them somehow and i really cant give a good reason why. maybe just not that contented yet.

Yes indeed. not that contented yet. wow. but i think it more of i dunno what i want. like seriously. now that I'm stuck at making life decisions, i could feel the panic attacking soon. like seriously.shits.i dunno wad i am supposed to do. i need to make a good decision so that this brain of mine can just be assured that I'm not just going down the stupid drain. Bottom line, i just don't disappoint myself later or fret over stupid decisions again. once is enough and it is not going to be repeated.

i need you so that i could rant the night away
Oh dearie me, I am the real essence of style.