okies, its a thursade. a beautiful thursdae for everyone and a sicky-morning-stomach upset-migraine-feverish feeling morning i had. how sick. i was indeed tired and lethargic and a hypnoptic morning just makes me feel worse. Then some twist of emotions occur that got my stomach cells worry to bits and pieces of everything. For a moment, i felt being disregarded and now, im going on cliche with something like...its not you, its just me. But wateva it is, i was just being a paranoia about everything. it was just something small or actually infact nothing did happen. argh!! i dunno. i just the attention from you. how depressing when i dont have any.

i did some thinking over the past few days with the very nice kambing of mine. we finally concluded that sometimes it is better not to know the person or just as an aquaintance. it is because sometimes first impressions of the other party makes you feel that she/he will be a very nice friend. however, as time past by, you will finally know the true colours of the other person and you decided that you dont like her/him in a certain way. by then, you cant have a turn around but just remain friends with the other party no matter how much you begin not to like her/him. do u think so? coz i think its true and i think im facing it now. not trying to be hypocritical but i think just be nice and put a facade will just do... :)