drops of me and you

2010-03-09T07:41:00.000-08:00

It's a week before i leave town and enjoy a splendid journey with the family. I'm really excited about it and yes, i really cant wait to pack my bag and just go and enjoy. I've yearn for a vacation for months at least. If only i could pack him along, then it would be better. Better in all ways as i wouldnt have to worry and keep thinking how things are for him when I'm really enjoying my days there. If only, i could pack you along too....

To be honest, after the many many many trips that ive been around the world, i have never read up about the country before the tripp but this trip is different. Ive read all necessary readings and make sure that i know where to get good food and at least know the location of the shopping centres there. Being the typical biatch* But i guess this tripp would be different as it will focus more on sight seeing and the enjoyment of driving. If only, i have passed driving then maybe it would increase the adrenaline in me slightly higher.

The boy has been behaving well at least for the remaining days that he will be seeing me till im offf for 10 days for the trip. i will definitely miss that particular other half and yes, im cracking the brain cell to get the perfect gift for him. Still, i have none in mind. This also applies the same for all. Oh wells, maybe authentic cadbury chocolates since cadbury originates from new zealand. Oh my. if its possible, i want to watch at least a rugby match of the all blacks team while im there. at least i can recite the hakka with them. hahha. soo cool la.

moving on about the tripp... im just taken back by the kind of poeple that surrounds me lately for at least 6 hours of the day and how blood sucking it maybe sometimes when you know that someone is nice with you because in need of some favour and all crap. i just take the plastic anymore like seriously and i dont wish to be the slave that nodds the head at every command that is given. i know you have the authority but i think that shouldnt be the way. im done with that and i feel that there should be more respect between each other. another thing would be people realising their own barrier that they put upon themselves and always being in denial about it at all times. seriously, you should know where you stand and being a friend does not mean girlfriend and really please don't involve a third party in any case for the grabbing of attention of that particular ugly duckling. really, i did not sign up to be part of some love triangle of yours and im clearly not interested. know your purpose and never use your friend to benefit you personally as it clearly reflects the kind of person you are. nevertheless, she isnt to blame either when things does not go your way especially. if that happens, then i would say, its just not your luck.

i mis the boy. i mis the boy. tmr would be another day with him, ima and her oother half. today was dinner, so wad tmr's plan?

2010-03-08T08:24:00.000-08:00

Knowing the date is getting nearer and nearer, it seems that we are getting closer and closer. Oh my, then it would be a abit more difficult for us to part for 10 days later. ouh baby, dun woriees, for im reseaching about international calling cards and where i can find them. only through this medium, i could hear your voice. * cheesy i know.

Anyway, meeting the boy again just makes the day especially when he offers pick ups after work then dinner and a safe ride home. i just enjoy rides. really. like how i wish i could ride my own some day and then we could ride together. * hahah. perasan i know. To plus up the day, the other half's twin joins and yes indeed, it makes the day merrier especially in between study laughs and nonsensical conversations. it funny when you tries to make similar comparisons between us but sometimes those comparisons are hidden facts that we did not see. oh wells, it applies for the "twins" as well.

Nothing could make the heart grow fonder other than more happy times and cherished moments with you.
i love you.

2010-02-28T08:19:00.000-08:00

In the working world, people do come and go and some will come and go as they wish without thinking about the inconvenience of others. how angry i can be with the other person, still there's nothing that can be done but to just extend my blessings for the person's future job and may he be blessed with more patience in life. drama? i know.

Its Ah Seng's last day and not everyone is happy. Oh wells, i'm not, at least. Its because i need to cover for someone else's shift since he just disappears from work due to some incovenient misunderstanding. Shits, i know. Although being just a part timer, it seems that im covering more like a full timer most of the time especially with some morons around making you do things then asking you stoopid questions that just doesnt makes sense. like, why arre not going home yet? im not going home yet because he refuses to take over me and definately im not leaving the other person dying alone cashering at the counter when the shop is full house. crazy? yes. he is ultimately insane and blood sucking sometimes. urgh. nevertheless, we will all miss aseng ... :(

TThe wallet broke as the hook doesnt seem to work anymore. SInce it doesnt clipp and safely keep the cash in it then i would consider it spoiled. anyways, it more like im dying to get a new wallet. i wanna get de PRADA but it is still in the saving process. i guess i will bare with the unclippable hook for the mean time while the pockes awaits for piliing cachings at the end of the time. though it is end of the month, sometimes, you just need to wait longer due to inefficient and super-slow-human-employeees-service-providers. thus, my wallet has to wait. hmmm....

I miss the boy.Its been 2 days since i last saw him and im alreadyy missing the other half. how sweet. Oh wells. i wanna see that boy again if possible soon. that colour ful boy that colours my world. :) hhaha. wHEEREE IS MY PUMPKINS???

2010-02-26T08:01:00.000-08:00

As beautiful the day was today, i hoped mine has happened the same way too but unfortunately some events are so coincidental or they are just meant to happen. she finally caught me red handed and yes indeed the long, decision making lecture that's filled with a mixture a of emotions just made me blank. as blank as i can be. stuck in between options of two opposites, deciding which i should follow. nothing could stop me loving you and yet nothing will make me feel complete without them in my life. i need the both of you in my life to get things working for me. these are things that made me feel complete as a person too and the only thing that i have asked from you would be your utmost understanding and accept things as it is. there's nothing you can do to make the changes in my life for I'm very much happy about everything that has been happening. honestly, i have been enjoying every minute of my life till you had to remind me again about the real deal with such a situation. it wass soo tak perlu eh.

gathering all the strengths that I'm left with, i just took the courage and left the boxed mobile without any form of expression. i left speechless and without a word to even express what i has in mind. to me, i guess it was all just pointless. the only thing that im looking forward to do was waiting to release the tension in me. waiting to pour out to anyone, anytime and anywhere.

the boy was always the saviour. he just made me feel better.
hes just the best thing that has ever happened to me and i want this to keep going for as long as i breathe. no one can ever be a replacement to you and you are truly my other half. i love you.

i wish the stars would sparkle for me and you while we are lying beneath it tonight.
i know a boy. he put colours and shadows my world....

2010-02-23T23:12:00.000-08:00

It is over 7 months of procrastination and finally i have decided to make a come back and start typing away the life story in the outlet of shared emotions. how nice.

Since 2010 came around, life has never been better. oh wells, i pray for more beautiful and happier days ahead with family, you, friends and everyone that has crossed my life path. i really think i need them somehow and i really cant give a good reason why. maybe just not that contented yet.

Yes indeed. not that contented yet. wow. but i think it more of i dunno what i want. like seriously. now that I'm stuck at making life decisions, i could feel the panic attacking soon. like seriously.shits.i dunno wad i am supposed to do. i need to make a good decision so that this brain of mine can just be assured that I'm not just going down the stupid drain. Bottom line, i just don't disappoint myself later or fret over stupid decisions again. once is enough and it is not going to be repeated.

i need you so that i could rant the night away

2009-07-13T22:11:00.000-07:00

i know how long it has been since i last worte here. mayb there wasnt any time or should i say i didnt make enough time for myself to reflect, think and write down what it needed.

i feel that it's impossible to not matter about the person whom you loved soo much and yet through your actions the person is convinced that you don't care anymore. how great to have things turning out like this when i expect it the least.

Why cant people believe it when you said that you're doing it for their sake or to save the melo-dramatic actions of anger. I have seriously no idea how to put it into simpler language to make you understand what's the initial intention of mine. i didnt mean to hurt you in any way possible and all i could think off was to not end up in an arguement and yet still tells you about it. im not lying. i still told you what happen it's just that i did not reveal the identity.

maybe i'm wrong after some thoughtful thinking but i didnt expect such a response from you. maybe its true when people says, the deed is easily forgotten yet the fault is remembered for a lifetime.

with the pile of work, the mental block, the extra coaching up to do..it's just making it perfect and you're not helping. wateva it is, i love you.

2009-06-18T23:57:00.000-07:00

Its finally here and yes he is back from the long awaited holiday of his. How glad i am that i did not have to wait any longer for the heart has been missing too much of his presence. Yes, i know it's chessy indeed but who cares. So lover boy returned to the sunny island at around 9pm just now and brought home a truck load full of experiences under the sea. Listening to his adventure eventually got myself excited too and they seem to have had so much fun for the last 3 days since they were away. How i wished i had spent the holiday and enjoyed as much fun as he did :(

So since i was almost done with the assignment and left with just sending it to fathinah, i decided to meet part of the TP SIlat members to plan for an inauguration ceremony next week. The planing that was mixed with a twist of nonsense and many many hours of rubbish was indeed a fun time that we had together. Finally, we managed to finish it at last and left with some details that is left to be confirmed. I'm so excited andi want this to go on well :)
It feels as though it was yesterday but i guess it's time to bid farewell.

i guess i'm in love with the song....
" 'Cause I love the way you more than I could ever promise, and you take me the way I am."

this empty brain has a question in mind..
why cant people have normal platonic relationships?
maybe not all but why isnt that possible for some?
i never believed in it at all but i guess that can happen for it is up to the person if he wants to nurture the feeling or he chooose to put it aside and carry on the friendship as just friends.
this empty brain just keep asking why...

2009-06-17T20:22:00.000-07:00

its the second day without him and yes the feeling is different but lets look at it over the bright side of life. it's only a day away. goodness, i cant wait and i simply miss him. like supperrr!

going back to school during the holiday is not a fun thing but i guess its the only two fruitful weeks that we can super enjoy before the term hits again and then yes, the SIP. i just hope that wouldn't end up all the way the other end of Singapore. the thought of traveling there every morning just makes me feel worse but what more about what we are going to do. it just makes it even worse. Anyway, we were back to do all because of GMP. Sucky? i know but we have no choice. yes, we still have a list to do bt i feel some groups are coping better and ii wonder how they did it. no matter what i still think that our group is still the best. so we managed to revamped the floor plan and discuss the uncertainties and homework was distributed. the deadline is tmr 5pm. im just hoping i wouldnt pass the deadline for i will make her angry and that shall not happen.

the impromtu meeting with the 2 chillak-as was cool. i feel i miss them soo much and so are the rest. i miss good old times and it seem like it was just yesterday we were still in that old blue pinafore. holy cow, i swear i miss the good old times with all of you and i'm dying to go for a chill out session with the girls. can't wait. i guess we shall have a chill out session at nabins soon coz i somehow miss nabin's though i just like last week. :) can?

love is like riddle and i cant seem to solve it.

your presence makes me smile and your call just now just makes my day.
i waited for the whole day cannnnn.
i miss loverboy.
how sweet.

distance makes the heart grow fonder :)
oh yea, im bloody broke and the sale just had to be today. i wannnnnnaaaaa to shoooppppp at MANNNNGOOOOO.

2009-06-16T21:07:00.000-07:00

the other half just made his way to Tioman this morning with a bad ending last night and sweet and beautiful morning line to make up for yesterday and also i guess make me smile for the day at least. everything seem to be okay but definately amist without his presence. things just feel so different. the handphone just seem to stop ringing and yes i miss the constant ringing and buzzing of the handphone like ultimately. somehow i feel that this temporary separation from him just made me realised how important he is to me and how much i felt for him. sometimes i guess everyone needs a wake up call to make realised how much the other person mean to you. feeling contented with what you have, has alway been the problem to all earthlings.

the day as mentioned has been rather a stay home tuesday thing but this time its different with the aunty staying home on a weekday and chilling with you watching the Tvee away.the comedy reflected her as person and i guess it make her realised how much pressure she has brought upon many people but yet it seem funny when you look back and think about it. i've always thank god for her presence as my aunty and not my boss. i would probably jump down from the highest building if she's the boss.

aniway, resigning its not an option and it shouldnt be a choice. in fact, it shouldnt be something and should not even crossed your mind, politics happens everywhere but see you must face things and make the peak again then when you have blocked all gateways then you make your leave and let the problem be handled by the morons who have always been taking credit for all the hardwork that you have put in. think it through and i guess it not worth it giving up now. do something and leave a mark before you leave. maybe you should think through properly with a calm mind and make a decision when you feel that it is the right choice.

i feel my cooking improved. yes, its yummilicious! :)

2009-06-10T23:16:00.000-07:00

it has been awhile since the last update and the holiday has been a fine so far.
there are many plans but seriously i dunno which one we are going to start with.
goodness.The shisha date we had with the groupies was a great one though.
it was a cool bonding and yes the ambience was not that bad but somehow i still prefer nabins like way better.
maybe the food was somehow cheaper and taste better and definately it was more comfortable. like seriously.
the grouppies planning some trip soon but im not sure as the date is yet to be confirmed.The place and venue are also yet to be confirmed.

Chillaks going out for a club date soon and yesh, diy not coming along again. firstly, im working and secondly, bby just woudnt let me.
he was saying something like the time will come soon and i shall wait for that time to come by.
excited i am but i shall keep the excitement away for awhile.

yesterday, i met my loverboy.it was a short date wit him just make my day :)
today shall mark the first to chill with the pilates! :)

2009-06-07T22:45:00.000-07:00

shit! im feeling fucking shitty now. like super shitty
not sure why but why does it have to come to me at this very moment.
maybe its her presence that im feeling all shitty and merepek. not worthy of him.probably,i sense the feeling she still has for him and im the middle person. just in between and make it an awkward moment for everyone.i want to shout and cry this feeling out super badly and probably get high or something to make me forget all of this.i just know she still loves you alot and nothing can changethat fact.its obvious and i still see the glittering love through her eyes whenever she looks at you.no matter wad you say to make me feel better im still convince that she still loves you. to make it worse and more positioned as the middle person when you talked about the friendly hits and kicks you gave each other and how you advised her and all. i bet the old vibes do come backand brought you back down memory lane.
i want to scream and shout and run away and let you be happy with her which i guess its the perfect match.sorry to feel this way but im happy that i touched your life and managed to be someone special for you.nothing make me feel better and being with you. having your laughters and smile just makes my day.being pampered by you is my favourite moment and just spending a romantic moment just makes me feelim living on cloud nine.but now, its her presence that makes me feel horrible and i want to run away.just run far away for noW!

2009-06-06T22:48:00.000-07:00

Its the start of the season and everybody is pretty excited about everything. some gt through the preliminary rounds while others didnt make it. sadly, im not involved again this year with the hussle and busle of things and work and assignments that needed to be completed just make me soo busy and dont have sufficient time to train. whatever nots it may be for me, at least im quite excited for bby and Enigma. Both of them played in the similar categories and yes indeed both made me proud with their individual acheivements!

Neutron gt a GOLD for His artistic male single and a SILVER for his artistic male team. how cool!
Enigma gt herself a GOLD for Artistic female team.

Cheers on their Wonderful Acheievements!
Bravo!

An insight to what he was doing 1/2 hr before his Finals...

i love my pretty boy! :)

2009-06-02T23:59:00.000-07:00

Goodness, im super in a dilemma of not which to get but more of which to save up for. i like both but im super not sure which will be the prefect choice. the second thing that is running through my mind is what colour should i get if im getting those coloured ones. Oh Myy..i cant possibly rant it out on darlingg because he will give me the "B, its lama lagiee" look. so yeah. im saving my every penny for this and hoping its more then worth it.

so, its either this

I cant slp now and the urge to buy this gadget is roaring inside me. i feel like creditting it to daddy's creadit card but i know what it will cost me later.

i miss my boncit and thinking about this his expression sometimes makes me smile:)
oh yea, the lil one went home aredie but i think ive aredie started missing the whinnings and cute puckers she would do if she wants something from me:) lovely memories.

2009-06-02T23:58:00.000-07:00

rantings about the day would probably make this particular entry of mine sound and look rather plain and boring. so i guess it would just be filled with moments and thoughts that i wish to share and it shall also be the outlet of anger and frustration in times of need.

moving on....

sometimes, i feel people should be more appreciative in a way. although you may not be as appreciative as you odd to be or at least thankful for someone's effort and thought for your daughter. she made sacrifices for your lil one and i think the least you could do was not to tell her off with your self centred and rude thoughts being recited using unfiltered words. sometimes, i feel that the surrounding people should just leave you by yourself and wait upon the results of your chances of survival. pity the young one for she will suffer for your mistakes.

besides being thankful and aprreciative, sometimes i feel people change being given the extra authority on their shoulders. why need such a change? i would understand if you would like to be more firm with poeple who steps over your head. However, not all should be treated the same. We started off the same and knowing the way how i do my work i guess you should know and judge as accordingly and not apply the same rule for all. i feel you are playing your cards wrongly and you need a revision for that. sorry if im too bold. :) keeping quiet doesnt mean im just absorbing whatever is done for the absorption has a limit to it.

darling picked me up and made me smile with cute braided pictures of his. he looks kinda girly and i think he needs a haircut. he makes the day sometimes if not rainy clouds will come by.

2009-06-01T08:27:00.001-07:00

Oh wells. I'm back blogging.
How funny i should say for the instant crave to start blogging once again.
Not sure of the actual reason but i just feel like blogging again.
This time i want to start everything a new.

New Blog, New link, New tittle.. New...What else?
Hmm.

Speaking about the grateful day..
It was kind of slow today maybe due to the slow peristalsis movement of my bowels but i guess it was a not too bad of a day of cause. Had lunch with the roxies in the afternoon after meeetings and the agenda was supposed to continue with group studying for its term test weeek. however, due to the stomach upset it didnt happen and there i was making my way back home. I guess they are staying the night at airport for the ample and fruitful study time. unfortunately, mummy wouldnt allow so...im home looking after the young one.

i think alya is cute and she is full of zest! i simply adore her.

2008-12-14T13:12:00.000-08:00

okies. the hectic term test week is finally over and i kind i screwed it up. the papers were like fcuking difficult. like seriously. i hope it was my best and nw nothing else can be amend.

since it was an over week, the roxies went to have some chill out session and we simply had fun. playing with puffs smokes and enjoying the simply chilled-out ambience which made everything seem perfect for a meng-hanging session with just us and them. the food was deniably great with a slap and a kick of scrumptious arabic tasty seasoning. the walks was great and tthe most lepak thing we did..was fun.

we had alot of in blur session and laughing-at you sessions and goodness, eevrything just made this little stomach of mine tickle so badly. knowing each other bbetter in and out was made the bond a stronger one and trust will eventually grow. having the roxies to cross my path, im just feeling so lucky. okies in fact superly happily happy.

the twin sister was in great danger earlier the week and i was rather quite worried for her. ahamdulillah that things are now much better and she is fine now. i simpy missin tthe twin siister. ive gt soo much to tell her and i bet she does too. ouh yea, the birthday is coming annd i gt the hint baby. :) arent you going to call me?

ouh imiss the bby too. :)

2008-11-29T05:40:00.000-08:00

as i was looking through this abandoned webbie of mine that used to be the best outlet for my emotion expression i ever had, i feel this pinched sadness.it is not because i have not been having a hell of a time with books or a healthy social life and gossiping hours, but it is because i have not been recording those precious moments in my life. those moments that i should record and look back at it someday when im ssad and smile and those historical moments as well experiences i went through.
okies, from this day onwards i'm going to promise to fill up my entries at least 3 times a week so as to let the twin sister knows what going on here and in life. since she's going to be away to dubai for a month, im so going to miss her like crazy! :) thats for now i guess.

2008-11-07T07:41:00.000-08:00

im frustrated.
im suffocated.
im furious.
im just too angry and in deep thoughts to even feel anything.

yes. that's the reason why.

it hurt me bad and i dun forget them easily.

i'm sensitive.

the fcuks in life tonite.

2008-11-07T07:12:00.000-08:00

i'm frustrated. i'm piss. like super.

i know its unappropriate to write it all down but i just need an outlet to take it all out from me. i can't sleep and it's taking into me. i just need a listening ear and outlet to vent as the usuals are not of help right now.

i felt trapped and suffocated with those questions asked and then i wondered where i stand and where she stand in your life. how much i meant to you and she meant to you? is there a difference in degree from where im standing and where she is standing? damn it.

you want to know what is my fucking problem with her? fine, then i will tell you all. i hate her because of that stupid act she had with you? didnt she had a brain to even think how i felt about it. i was your gf and she was just a minute fat fren of yours and she was acting to e your FUCKING FUTURE WIFE! wth. althou it was playing but still i was hurt. dont you know how i felt? like seriouly.. do some thinking man
yes indeed she didnt do anything wrong to me besides that stoopid joke they played. okies, you guys played. but hey where has all the thinking gone to?

now, you think that im fcuking selfish coz im letting myself do what i wanna do and leave you with restrictions. you wanna know why? you just cant differentiate the difference between a joke and iif its beyond the limit... and now you telling me you calling that bonding time?

what fcuk can that be?

haiz
life is a joke sometimes and having this ppl around making it more difficult to breathe.

tearing let me feel relieved from the rppoblems and crying allows me to be free from all shits of life.

to be honest, i reallie dunch know why.... but i simply just hates her. :)
yes in a bitchy tone voice* i just hate her and her bfat boobs.

ouh yea. from now on. i shall leave you withouut restrictions and shall do what you want to do. i gave up. since it is what you want i guess. so yeah. all cheers. :)

2008-10-31T21:24:00.000-07:00

the waited weekends are finally here! im super excited. i just cant wait for more off days. anyway, the pmic group meeting with AL has been a good one except that we are short of a certain test and we now have to look what other possible test that is available as well as other available method. IPT, however, is not done yet and i hope that i could assign all the work by next week then everything could be done as soon as possible. now, im at work with baby's power point edit and project report edit. its kinda fun having to edit someone else's work but actually if you think about it, im asking him wad to do and just merely help to add and erase slides/ pictures/ information.

so yesterdae, was the PMS shit day and i was drenched of all emotions except being angry. so somehow meeting the other half made me feel better and while helping me out with the final project....we played with the webcame and shot pictures. haha. cute. no, i find them cute,..hahah. :)

the link that enigma gave me to watch gossip girl has been an everyday nite routine. i just got to watch gossip girl every nite before i go to bed. soon, i will be a gossip girl addictt. i must confess that i reallie find the drama rather much more interesting compared to the book when i read it once in lower secondary.

i guess thats for all. adious :)

2008-10-30T23:45:00.000-07:00

i need an inspiration. :)

i am frustrated . PMS-ing days are here again. HOW GREAT!

the day had been rather short but back to back lessons that make me feel so much pain and stressful. microbiology makes the day even worse when we can not derived to the expected or should i say required piece of information. shit hell. soooo.. instead, we set our super clouded intelligent minds free from all worried and had our group bonding. it was hilarious and funny with truck load of stories by ayu. its interesting listening and having extra sound effects by fuanni and ili made it better. nad and i couldnot stop laughing and the jokees just made these little minds free of cluttered pieces of unsolved problem that disturbs our intriguing minds.

sooooo...
in the mid of the fruitful conversation that i have with the other half, the damn syndrome struck again and now i couldnt hide all the negative mood that has been engulfing me and move it away coz this time baby knows it best. im sorie if it spoils it all. but baby its the time of the month and i thought that you have seen it coming...like super soon. Being super patient and understanding, baby just went on with the flow... i love you syg. muackx! :)

i was bloghopping wen i saw some ugly-moronified-beast footprints of unwanted presence on baby's tagg board with something i should say not accepted in my- just friends- dictionary. sometimes, these morons just have nothing better to do....too bad, my baby is taken..forever.

2008-10-29T23:22:00.000-07:00

the days has been a pleasant jouney but not too ppleasant with the workload, the nagging, the scoolding, the mistakes, misfortunes and all the other mis-ses and the negative stuff that anyone could have thought off... everyone has got their balls rolling for the semester and as per normal diy got her's just started. sorie, but i'm just up from the holiday mood people!

okies, so far so good. these few days no cock-ups and no errors. so im quite fine and hope that sufficient information has been provided so then no worries for peers evaluation for not doing a good job. somehow i guess its still early to say anytthing since everything is possible.

meeting the boyfriend has been a week's after skool routine and im happy that i can spend adequate time with him. too bad, he's down with a flu and sinusitis. Sinusitis is an infection or inflammation of the lining of the sinus cavities which eventually are hollow spaces in your cheeks and around your eyes. Sinus infections often follow a cold and cause pain and pressure in your head and face. Sinusitis can be either acute (sudden) or chronic (long-term). With chronic sinusitis, the infection does not ever go away completely.

so darlx baby got me scared for the moment of time thinking it was serious but not too woriees, its not that serious afterall as his is a bacterial infection. Since his is just a bacterial infection, he is dosed with antibiotics, decongestants , anti-histamines and also lozenges to ease the sore throat. he will take sometime for recovery but some of his symptoms will not go away after mayb months according to how strong is his immune system.

i shall be the private pharmacist and nurse his lethargic body with drugs and ensure that he is on the recovery path as soon as possible.i love my darling baby so get well soon honey. :)

reading the past entries made me smile,
you're the reason behind the smile.

i miss the twin sister.
enigma..where are you? we so got to go out soonnn and erm...shop?

tmr class starts late at 12pm and that means i have extra bed time tonight. :)

2008-10-23T23:48:00.000-07:00

cobwebs are covering this entire spce of mine. being too busy with skool and the social circle just keeps me away from free time of blogging. many things are happening and definately there are some which are happy moments while others just otherwise. in a day i can have a thousand and one emotions that circulate through this entire soul of mine. feeling drenched has always been the last emotion i would feel when im on bed every night these past few days. Lethargic-ness has gone away and im learning to divert all the strengths i have to wokr after watching the OPera show yesterday. how cool can that be?

for now im just loving life the way it is.

as mentioned school have startd and indeed the stress weeks are here to come. deliriously happy that im able to meet the farmiliar faces once again, the workload this time is just unimaginable that i realise i will not have enough time for myself at all. The subjects would be just depending on how much you have read from the reccomended text and alot of project are coming my way. just the first week i already have 2 PBL and 1 project work launched and certain deadlines are to met along the way. being group leader is just no fun.

procrastination is one bigg problem that i think im facing.

baby has soccer just now at kallang and i decided to make my way and watch him play. however it abit late that i missed the game. we then left for dinner and later met fat gobules and headed home together. nevertheless, i still enjoyed my time. :)

thats for now. sayonara.

2008-10-15T21:03:00.000-07:00

the sleepy day, the grounchy morning, the excitement and smiley company and the ultimate surprise all in a day. wad a day i must say. i must thank enigma and my dearest for the wondrful time and company and that includes the sweet note, the splendid meal and the ultimate surprise that you might be going away in about 6 months to serve the nation. now, im panicking abit. i think it have finally sunk into me that you have to go and serve the nation soon and im willing to wait patiently for my one and only dearest. how sweet.

money takes out the evil someone. it took out the evil me when warden had to take some of mine. im stress and i cant take it off my mind.

ouh yea, semlm we all went jln raye. not the whole PST cohord but just ard 14 people. we completed 10 houses in a day and it included all the eatings and the kueh testing and the wad nots. there was much fun and bby just make the company a better one to be with. i love you syg.

alrites honeys, i will upload the pictures soon.

For now, sayonara...shes just not very nice now and shes missin her dearest. :)

2008-10-08T23:42:00.000-07:00

it was a splendid day out yesterdae since i could spent the entire day with my boyfriend loves! i was esctatic about everything and being excited about every single detail that was going to happen just gt my adrenaline rushing even faster. it was just a real good break from all the hectic months or school and cake making and preparation of what nots. im just happie i could spent the whole day wit him and everything seems complete. how great

but the moment i set foot onto the minute island of sentosa, i began to remember those sentosa times the chillaks had together with the picnic and the happie water times and the tanning? hahahz. yupz. all was remembered. another happie thing that happen was when i bumped onto the cute earthlings that became good friends of mine..belo, bush and radhia. the more joyful i was after months not seeing them at all. we were screaming in the toilet as thou we have not met for ages. hahah.

i simply love the chillaks thou im always away, i love the ping yi clan and i just simply love my adorable, you.

2008-10-04T01:46:00.000-07:00

okies. the cobwebs will be clearded soon as i start this very first entry after a month's break. to be honest, i just wanted not to be track for a month. just needed to be away from all this cyber world thing.

so the month of ramadhan had been a great one and i had been particularly busy helping mum out with the chores and the what nots and also the shoppings! ouh! i love that most. the bazaar at tampines has been an encouraging one and my dearest lovable earthlings have decided to continue thier business the following rmadhan, insyaalllah. so wad else happened...

hmm..

this Raya is the most kecoh one i had comparing with the past several years because everyone is ber-raya-ing at my place and since this year grandma is one of the eldest sibing/cousins/aunty still alive, everyone is like serang-ing my place. meeting new faces i have never met before and getting to know that they are somehow related to you is kinda weird at first but as the day grew darker, i finally got used to it. the atmosphere is more lively this year despite the PSLE/ N-Levels/ Olevels are just around the corner. everyone seem to let down their hair and just enjoy the moment. while for me, i enjoy eating best this festive season!

2008-08-22T20:03:00.000-07:00

not everyday would be a sunny day just to keep the smile on our faces.

sometimes unexpected weather might just turn the day around and it is all gloomy now. i know how you feel and im at the state where i could simply pull off my hair and scream my lungs out and run away, just far away from all this. im emotionally and mentally drenched. im in no sense of direction. all i need is a listening ear and to have things to go my way.how i want it to be.please..just let them hear my timid screeching voice that is such an annoyance to them.

just listen to me will you? is that too much to ask for?

i love you soo much.

2008-08-21T00:00:00.000-07:00

HAPPIE BURFDAE BABY! :)

May your burfdae be a great one this year and filled with the many many goodlucks and the everlasting hapie and smilling times that you could ask for and i hope you like the CAKE and the little giift that i have for you.. :) enjoy your day today darlx. I'm so glad i could celebrate your happie day with you and have all the smiles in the world.

i love you.

you're simply adorable.

2008-08-17T19:17:00.000-07:00

it was rushing peanuts in the wee hours of the morning and everyone in the house was super busy till evening. Plus, i got an excuse to skip mad class todae so that make it abit easier for me coz by the time the clock strike noon, i was super sleepy and tired. mummy's busines partner son gt married, so we had to plan every single thing and thnk god it was a success.

then little darwish didnt have a baby sitter today so i volunteered. he is super charming and his big black eyes just make us just rather look alike. He has baby's skin tone and im super convinced when i bring him out mayb everyone will tink that little darwish belongs to me...he just makes my day while my baby rest his body cells with prolonged sleep for this entire dump day. how sad! i miss my baby. :)

baby darwish asyraf :)

ouh yeea, someone poke my feelings and i feel infuritated....
once bitten twice shy, that shall be the last.
baby agreed with me. right?

i sygggg my boncit!

Happie 13th months baby! :)

2008-08-15T21:02:00.000-07:00

random moments happens and class didnt felt draggy at all. i realised that being close to a teacher might be an advantage. it is because you get extra info and hints about the upcoming paper. thankx Mshee. It helps and i know you reallie want all of us to do well and i hope i will. at least a B? wad do you say?

aniway, I met my lovely baby. we had a great indulgence of Pizza Hut with shikin and nasri. it was somehow in conjuction with their 2nd month anniversary. great wasnt it? after soo many days of waiting to meet him, i was finally able to. both of us is finally free of the tight knots of project work after project work...now, it will be a weekly friday routine to meet him up and spent time my one and only buah hati. baby will be turning 19th soon next week and im still on a hill of great thoughts thinking what to get for him for that special day. hmmm. i know what he wants but he decided that he wants to get it himself... so yea.. lets think off another perfect gift for him?

Enigma and banker will be away for the weekends. One will be overseas and banker will be in camp. then my darlx baby will be occupied with work...so im left home to study for the MOnday's term test. :) i hope there will be ample time for me...

ouh yeea, next week wouldnt be a great time to work coz my carzy joyce will be in china! one holy week shit. how great. im left with Tens and Ads. Then another look forward thing will be tmr's tour to whitley prison with daddy and tuition with the lovely tutee in the evening. what a saturday! :)

Boncits! can i have more of you?

2008-08-14T16:18:00.000-07:00

its only a day away!

okies, its a thursade. a beautiful thursdae for everyone and a sicky-morning-stomach upset-migraine-feverish feeling morning i had. how sick. i was indeed tired and lethargic and a hypnoptic morning just makes me feel worse. Then some twist of emotions occur that got my stomach cells worry to bits and pieces of everything. For a moment, i felt being disregarded and now, im going on cliche with something like...its not you, its just me. But wateva it is, i was just being a paranoia about everything. it was just something small or actually infact nothing did happen. argh!! i dunno. i just the attention from you. how depressing when i dont have any.

i did some thinking over the past few days with the very nice kambing of mine. we finally concluded that sometimes it is better not to know the person or just as an aquaintance. it is because sometimes first impressions of the other party makes you feel that she/he will be a very nice friend. however, as time past by, you will finally know the true colours of the other person and you decided that you dont like her/him in a certain way. by then, you cant have a turn around but just remain friends with the other party no matter how much you begin not to like her/him. do u think so? coz i think its true and i think im facing it now. not trying to be hypocritical but i think just be nice and put a facade will just do... :)

i miss my boncit! :)

2008-08-13T11:42:00.000-07:00

Fcuk! im bloddy pissed off. at this very moment, i feel super trashy. i mean it this time. everything seem to be at the brim of explosion. the next wrong move happens, i swear im going to explode. (take a deep breathe in..)

why is everyone finding the fault that lies in me? im a human too okay? in case if you have forgotten. its sucky. can you please stop it and blame yourself and not me. first the warden then the penguin...so who is next in line? goodness, i cant wait to know who is the unlucky duck that has to listen and faced the unwanted explosion. im bloody piss.

ouh yea, i realised something. people should stop assuming. like seriously, assuming then conclude it all by yourself without even consulting the person herself. like wad, am i your bloody R-O-B-O-T? i have my own stuff too so you have to be considerate and asked if i do have anything important before planning MY agenda for the day without me knowing. im boiling like a hot soup in here and what i know next, i have a lab to go for. shit, it drenched all the emotions in me and i feeling at least motivated mood to even go my look-forward-sessions and tuition and work later.

next, I cant have you when i need you most. :(

i feeel like going on hiatus from all this morons.
i neeed a getaway...
hibernation and iso0lation would be the best thing out.

i know.. iknow that this outlet supposedly to be about happy thing but too bad, not everybody is happy everyday. while at least, i am not now. so, make sure you think twice before talking to me at least just for today.

2008-08-12T20:53:00.000-07:00

tuesday. What a _______ day. It was rather chil and relax compared to any other days of the week. I had revision that end an hour earlier then long period of breaks and annother hour of lesson before sckool ended for me at 3pm. After much clarification about certain doubts and how to solve the different questions that might have a huge possibility coming out for exams, i realised that DrW is not that bad afterall. although DrW did not meet to our expctions for Topic 5, at least for this class DrW did a good job and finally i was able to understand that equilibrium concept. its not that easy okies. it was huge challenge for this little midgid and it took me a week, including today, to understand it. humph!

so then headed to tuition and the boy was kind enough not to get the pressure pressing high. he did his work just like i wanted and in fact today, tuition didnt feel like a drag at all... :)

it started off well tday and im so hapie that melancholic days are over but the sleepy blur sotong had to spoil it by saying that line. shitz. im sorie. i know it hurts but i reallie didnt mean it thou all i wanted was just you to listen to what i have to say...and let the normal response roll. im realie sorie and now i just dunch know how to make it beta. :( i wish things could be like how we started off in the morning....

imissmybabyoreadie.wheneverweareapart,itfeelslikeforever.Pleasedon'tletthishappiemomenttoend. :)iLOVEYOU!

2008-08-11T22:50:00.000-07:00

Its a Monday today and here comes the Monday blues. Damn!1 ive gt loadz of last minute assignment piling up and the deadline is getting nearer and i have no motivation drive to do or even touch them at all. Shitz! I've super noo-mood-kinda-feeling to do anything but just rott and let the day pass without me having to do anything.

Tmr will be the deadline for the other project. it's done and thank god! The presentation was done just now and i guess it was good. just that i had to rattle through the slides as there wasnt enough time for me but no worries, no marks will be deducted.

So after a long super boring-hectic-shit day at school, i finally met lover boy! hahah. super happie i was! :) we had dinner and had our normal-perfect conversations that we always have. i miss those time when i had nothing else in mind but just enjoying the splendid time with my darling pumpkinx. We headed off home and that was all for the day. Your smile mesmerizes me...and i miss you areadie..how?
hahah. okies. i know. corny! but i mean it okies...

this week will be the last week of skool before we leave for study week then before you know it, its exams then it will be HOLIDAYS! hahahz. Then it will be HARI RAYA! :) hahah. cant wait!

that should be all. my half asleep-drain-dead-brains needs to be in the off mode now. adious.

2008-08-09T23:49:00.000-07:00

okies okies! updates! i know, i know. be patient. it has been ages and im just abandoning this webpage of mine. how sad. IT was the Nation' Birthday and we GOT TICKETS! so we went but it wasnt the floating stadium. It was the ntuc tickets, so we had to joined forces and create the largest humanoid flg in the whole. cool thou but the rain just washes away all the enthusiasm. BUt no doubts, i had fun! super fun thou i know the day could be better. The boyfriend made it better for me. thanx honey, You're loved! :)

ouh yupz, to those that i was supposed to drop by and say hie, sorrie peepz! we didnt had the time too...maybe next time okies. MAGOOoooo, I miss you!

The pictures shall do the talking while i wished SINGAPORE, HAPPIE 43TH BIRTHDAY!

ouh yea, i met farmiliar faces and and yes indeed it even made my day. all those "long tym no see" faces just rekindle all the past sweet memories of fun and laughter we had...those times when i was still super active in all kinds of activities, for eg: tarian with Kemuning...haiz. all gone long for now...i just that it all i have and im heading for a great supper with the Family tonight. Muackx, I Love my baby! :)

2008-07-29T23:12:00.000-07:00

i know, i know. i see cobwebs everywhere now. it has long been last updated and i reallie dun have the time too. im happie , living great. just perfect. no bumps or roller coaster rides anymore. all thankx to mr Compromise. ive learnt to compromise and as much as i am able to, i will compromise. i wan to live a happie go lucky life, free of all kinds of melancholic feelings. yupz. thats shall be my new resolution in this short life of mine. smile big and free of all hates.

okies, i was down with diarrhea yesterdae and the pain was excruciatingly shitty and i swear i gonna keep away from all kinds of diary products for 2 weeks. just following the doc's advice. feeling hyper and great todae, the colour purple just makes it even better. i went for the job interview and im done. i gt the job and will be starting new week. cant wait2! excited i am but somehow something is just pulling me back. not sure what it is but im just gonna put this evil shitty feeling away. what i know, i just want to enjoy the job and do it well. so.. GUARDIAN here i come.

on a lighter note today, its payday for me with the tutee. ive many things in mind. i wanna shop and spent like nobody's effing business but i wanna save too at the same time. like bby alway says, get what you need and not what you want...which eventually will be diverted to all the wants to the needs column so that i would be able to buy them.

now, after much rattling im going to tuck in and enjoy the comfort of the bed. :)

Ive gt a date with enigma belle soon and i simply cant wait.
and. bby..i miss you alreadie. :) how? get well soon aniway.
chillak-a gang, when is our next meng-hang-ing time?

2008-07-20T20:13:00.000-07:00

2008-07-17T17:35:00.000-07:00

the day is finally here and the counting days are over. its a big day for me and my lovable boncit. its one year. our speacial one year. the year spent with you had been great. everything seems complete and there would be nothing that could replace you. cliche i know. i always feel so safe and warm in your arms and tha every thought of you keeps me smiling. although we had our times that we would argue for the whole nite and would pretend nothing happend the next day and all the other bitter period of ours, you're still the one that i want to be with till eternity. i love you super duper much and hoping that this relationship of ours will be filled with laughter and smiles and eveyrthing sweet you can think off in years ahead...and..you always be my lovable-boncit-sweet-mucho-hotcakes muffin-slenger-cute-belo-adorable handsome boyfriend. Hope our day will be great tmr! :)

2008-07-14T23:12:00.000-07:00

Okies, it counting days away and im excited. its turning a year and this would be my evry first. super estatic i am and there are no words that could describe this feeling im having. I'm planning for the day and i wonder where and what should we endulge ourselves with? it must be a very special day.

moving on.. tmr will be the second interview before the presentation which will be in two weeks and im just done with work. many things are coming this way and im getting out of hand. getting myself into too many projects left me unprepared for my test. for an instance, i know i;ll be failing this test that i took just now and it just spoils the whole and before u know i gt an A for another quiz. at least that makes me feel better. im so badly in need of As and Bs.

oh yea, i did this voice recording audition for masking of the hearing impaired. hoping that i would be selected, so that i would flood my seals system with my seal points. aniway, instant brush up of the malay language with Ili wasnt tha bad at all. in fact, i enjoyed it.

i miss this boncit of mine and to meet the needs of the missing love soul, we had dinner. the intention was to dine at Pizza Hut but... it was packed. being impatient morons, we decided to feast at KFC. its been long aniway. spending ample time with you is simply bliss and i miss those times that i had nothing but soo much time to spent with you. Dun worie, those moments will return soon. lets everything out.

i nid to get a new baby since the current one is giving way. irritating it is coz it keeps hanging and reseting and the silent button doesnt work properly event. although it still looks new externally, the internal software and parts are half past six. i was thinking of this but what do u think? i super like the functions and phone looks cool to me. cant wait to find the right time to change. :)

2008-07-11T00:37:00.000-07:00

He is the sunshine, the heart beat, the every essentials... :)

Okies. Im missing this boy here biggy time! like seriously. we had not have our proper meet up lately and laugh our way throughout the time and imagine the world is ours for a very very very looong time. i mssing it like alloadz.i guess it time to have some fun baby...yohoo! i cant wait to meet you later and spent the day with you peacefully? maybe...

okies. its the last day of the week and the projects are due. thank god. the nites are over. no more coffee, no more redbull and no more any kind of medication that keeps these eyeballs awake for nites. im exhausted. like seriously. i want a break and i realie realie need a break. wateva it is the break would last only for a day i guess? coz next week would be another hectic week. guess wad on my list for the weekend? its preparation for the next presentation on the first day of this coming wk. wth. its a monday and i have to complete the presentation. goodness gracious.im not the only one complaining, everyone is also doing the same.. i just gonna let the weekend surf and make it a good rest before the thunder storms comes my way...

tuitions are also coming on with a long list to complete before the lil boy sits for his main paper. worried i am but i still gt to make him do his work...in a month or two, all that will just be over. i jus simply cant wait for the semester and the lil boy main paper to be over...

good heavens! my eyes are closing and i should be sleeping. Good Morning Earthlings! :)
i cant wait to start a day with your beautiful smile.
6 more days to go..

2008-07-10T10:28:00.000-07:00

i know ive not been updating but i realie dun have the time to, so i guess i have to keep all the happie times that is going on just for me..Smirk*

okies, life's been painful with the load of work and guess wad, the deadline is getting closer and its drivin my brains nuts. no one is going at their relax mode anymore, everyone is on their heels and the next thing you knw, they started flying alreadie. if only, i could spread and flap my wings to fly away and just enjoy the beauty of nature. Nothing will then be the problem and i could savour the taste freedom. free of all destruction or obstruction?

aniway, excuse the nonsense that these butter fingers of mine are rattling. im tired and its 1.35am in the morning and im still down with the last bit of project and presentation. everything seem so rushie2 and i dun like it. :( it has not been a great week this week with the stress load but i hope next week would be a smooth sailing one....*crossing the fingers tight.

Mr banker has gone off to serve the nation and We(refers to neutron and i) will take god care of enigma. in times of needs, we will be here for you. just remember dear, im just a call away. ouh yea, Banker..have fun serving the nation. i hope it would be a enjoyable trip to tekong.hahah

i hav not met the other half for awhile and i super duepr miss him. i miss him. i miss him. i miss him. i wanna spent time with you, can dear? when? lets make time and play together under the rain? wad do u say? i miss you my boncit! :) its 7 more days to go, arent you excitd? syyggg kamu.. :)

Let the insecurities rest and let the haunting dream go. if we hold on tight, it will never happen. have trust in me, have trust in yourself and trust this relationship of ours. i love you so much and nothing can ever change that.

2008-07-01T09:11:00.000-07:00

okies. good lords! im going to grumble my way tonight in this lil outlet of mine. im super exhausted and guess wad the week just started. sick isnt it? The whole mondae was super pack and i had only an hour of break. how pathetic! throughout that gracious day, i had back to bcak lessons and it sucks! super lah! :)

then today, some had only two hours of lecture and they were done for the day but i had other lessons so it was longer for me. since it was a hang over of yesterdae, everyone was still so tired and lethargic when its only TUesday, the second day of the week! how fantastic.

tmr there would be another 6 hours of total labs and im so hoping that the Lena would be so kind to let us off super early due to a short and brief experiment. oh yea, looking through the workload, next week i would be truck loaded with assignments and tutorial quizes and also quiz 2! its soo crmpy and ridiculous! are you crazy to have a prolonged week of tests..? nuts arent you? i now for sure, there is one coming in tonight...and to be sure, its not going to be good.

i've not be spending days and precious time with lover boy and he on other side to is uber uptight with his own schedule. if time permits, i'll see him tmr, to be exact before skool starts for me. i know that its upfront pathetic but i have no choice but i miss him dearly or infact too bloody much. oh yea, i gt a new Winnie and he gt a new haircut. will upload the pictures soon. :)

okies, i gues its enough for the night. too much to handle, wait later the brain screw go loose..

i miss him and i demand to see you tmr... can syg? plz pumpkins?

2008-06-20T22:36:00.000-07:00

the normal bloomy day it was today and i enjoyed myself. verry very much indeed. thank you soo much for the day spent with you. having seeen the other side of me, might cause you to hate me sooner or later, right?

i know im difficult. i know my i can't stand rowdy behaviour. i know im outspoken. i know that when i arrowed someone else, i can't have the same arrow pointing back at me. i know i'm bitchy. i know i love to be that gurlly bitch. i know that i always make people be who i want them to be. i know that i'm a queen control. BUT wateva negative thoughts i have for myself, i know that you still know me best. im soorie. much apologies.

Its PSK 2008 opening tonight and the games will start after the keris is handed over to the head of competition. Much thrilled and excitement. i'm sure everyone is determined to bring back that gold-winning glory tittle. Wish you guys all the best. :)

2008-06-19T23:59:00.000-07:00

Splendid well spent days i had with the other half and i think its bliss having to be with him continously for days. wohoo.

so, the projects are back on wheels and im left with so little time to enjoy my days before i say hello again to the dumb, heavy and boring materials of my course of study. how great. so the four light bulbs met up to solve the mystery of DRUG B. how and which way is the most cost effective way a company should be encouraged in order to produce the DRUG B only provided with BENZENE. there you go, my problem based question. we search through the thick and dusty library books as we worked through a solution and then laughed our ass off only to find a simplest answer to our solution. something we didnt thought off at all. to be honest, half of the time, we were grumbling through and telling each other how lost we are in this blood sucking and heart aching subject of Organic chemistry 2. nonetheless, we will complete the homework = the work distributed and meet up on thursdae for the next session.

looking through the 'notes' book, i realised that selection of electives have to be done tmr and unfortunately i have not totally decided yet. tsk tsk. ovbiously i was too caught up in his company that i forgot all about it! how forgetful..

so the day ended well coz baby bought me THAT slipper i wanted. THANK YOU HONEY. :)
hahah. i was estatic and there she goes singing.." lalalalaa.."

thats all folks. toodles.

2008-06-17T01:19:00.000-07:00

okies. the blog has a new skin and im glad i just changed it. to be honest, at this hour when u cant watch what u want to watch, then u get bored. like real bored. for a perfect example, it would be me.

i like this skin. i feel its much much more simpler and i dun think i need any prints. the colours will just make my day.

its the 11th month today. im not counting down the days i am with him but im counting off the happie days i had with him. memories are meant to be treasured and so are you. you are part of me indefinately and thats what david cook has been singing everytime the ipod plays...i love my boncits and im looking forward for more happie moments and silly times wif you... :)

boncits not playing this time too and so.. this time we are benchwarmers..how great.. not!
im dreading this year's ________....

There's nothing in this world
There's not another boy that could make me feel so sweet :)

2008-06-13T23:51:00.000-07:00

okies peeps i'm finally back from the looooong Holiday. shopping is heaven and missing th other hlf is hell...

i just gt back n will update about the trip and the upload the editted pic soon. :)

didi lovees you... :)

2008-05-31T23:55:00.000-07:00

Tuailah padi antara masak
Esok jangan layu-layuan
Intailah kami antara nampak
Esok jangan rindu-rinduan

Anak cina pasang lukah
Lukah dipasang di Tanjung Jati
Di dalam hati tidak ku lupa
Sebagai rambut bersimpul mati

Batang selasih permainan budak
Daun selasih dimakan kuda
Bercerai kasih talak tiada
Seribu tahun kembali juga

Burung merpati terbang seribu
Hinggap seekor di tengah laman
Hendak mati di hujung kuku
Hendak berkubur di tapak tangan

Kalau tuan mudik ke hulu
Carikan saya bunga kemboja
Kalau tuan mati dahulu
Nantikan saya di pintu syurga

back to the oldies..and this song is just for you baby. :)
i love you you and i missin my boncit! :)

2008-05-30T23:52:00.000-07:00

Okies, the new adventure getaway was to ehub!
A great place to hang out and chill with the friends and wads great the movies is cheap. i like the place but the food is a minor problem. You have not much of a variety there coz downtown east is just next door. there are interesting shop and a ferris wheel in the mall. cool though.
So the boyfriend and I spent the wonderful day with his kecohrables and we simply had an indulgence of mirth. i was estatic about this whole trip to the ehub and much to my disbelief, i was became a jakon there...seriously, i was uper amazed at the fact that there is a ferris wheel in a mall but theres one thing about the mall that i think there would be many room for improvement and that would be more shops available.

oh yea, just now we watched the movie Congkak. not quite bad for a malay ghost story. Boyfriend thought that there are similarities of the exorcist and this movie. certain parts are quite scary but other than that its just the sound effect and i think its too loud that it got me deaf for the moment time. you guys should watch it if you like blarring sound effects.

hmm...
i guess its till here for now and i've nothing else to write. so signing off...

missing my boncit though i spent the whole day with him.
if you guys catch yesterdae's malay news, there was a robbery case mentioned and it was talking about baby's gt rob moment. yes, he gt robbed! thank god nothing happened and what happend was wad worried my stomach cells most.

2008-05-29T22:12:00.000-07:00

it didnt went the way it should be and im stoopidly missin the one and only boncit. worse still, he gt caught up with something and its worries me to my stomach cells. i just super duper worried. like duh!

aniway, today marks the end of the term before term test wk next week and then we are off for our holidays. everyone seem so anixious coz there is super alot to study and guess wad, some are still clueless about wads going on. there is something new and that is im NOT the one who clueless about the topics coming out but the baboon is.hahah. i just need a solid weekend to go through my stuff and i guess i will b fine after that. i want to score an A!insyallah. one more to add to the check list, the baboon has become a new rival in this mini competition of ours.

as the clock ticks, im waiting patiently for the phone to ring....are you going to call me?

oh yea, if u noticed there has been loadz of msgs and calls which are left unresponded. my phone is under repair and my line will be reconnected tmr. so, i guess you guys can beep me soon by tmr i think.

chillak, i cant wait to meet you guys! each and everyone of you!

IVP is coming and the one and only boncit is playing tunggal and so is Enigma participating in Regu and Tanding...so this time hafiz and me not involved...im counting down to the days to see the Friday clique again.

The first hols week will be spent in.....hahahz
keep in suspense..will update soon?
after term test week i guess...

au revoir! :)

2008-05-27T22:26:00.000-07:00

the quizes and test and what nots are over for now before the big wave comes and float us into another phase of term test which is like Mid years if u don't know...then the holidays will make it way for two weeks then i will be in the dilemma of going to let the hair down and being with my lil boncit and keeps me smilling...

the presentation did not went on that bad afterall and i think i scored a perfect score to secure an A for myself. JuLes happen to be a very good teacher not like bee who nags her day away and the unknown solutions of stochiometry has now been locked into my functional secured bank of information = brains.

The kambings in skool made me laugh and eat and eat and eat!

Its the first time roaming the school nxt door and indeed it just like the other tertiary schools available and i realised people just stereotype these people from the school and the other difference, they are wearing uniform. aniway, the selction was held just now but unfortunately, the boyfren didnt had to go for any selections and i couldnt stay any longer than after 6pm coz i had tuition.

Having to meet the boyfren today is bliss and it makes me smile even wider. i love you my boncit! :)

I smile because you make me smile
and you never fail to make my heart skipped...

2008-05-25T21:15:00.000-07:00

The council has spoken and my burning flame has been put away.
Its the final say.
I'm not part of it.

Dissapointed i maybe but i'm happy for the rest.
Congrats to you guys who have made it and wish you success for the upcoming competition :) I will always pray for your success okies?

Thank you everyone who have helped me through the weeks of preparation and during the selections itself. im sorie.

Thats for now and im going to float in the sky to watch the fullmoon tonight with you....

I was thinking about it and mayb im just not cut out for this sport. i have no potential and talent. My journey will just end here i guess. sorie.

2008-05-22T22:01:00.000-07:00

two tests in a day and its more than enuff to make me go bonkers and dead tired for at least a day. so the brain tightly filled with information was exhausted. there were no breaks in between since lessons started at 8am all the way to 2pm, i swear every now an then the stomach growl in anger and the urge to gobble food escalates each time it growls for food. the partner kept laughing at the stoopid noises that the stomach was making and it begin that joke of the day. it was making reall farnie noises and i cant stop it myself but to helplessly let the noises go lose.

as the day ended early, meeting the loverboy was essential. it helps in destressing i tink. so we ended up at katoong for pool, then to marine parade for food and east coast for de-stressing. it was maghrib that i was unfortunate to meet the white bolster up on the tree. rage in fear and panic, i quickly left with him and the next thing i know i was on the cab home. it was real scary coz i wasnt seeing things and he saw it too. told the mama(s) about it then i did my prayers and ahamdulillah i felt much better. im really hoping that the image would clear off from my mind and sunny days are look forward too. :)

thank baby for the comfort. im beta now.

2008-05-21T20:01:00.000-07:00

the day went on well just a lil hiccups of the timetable and leaves me with a sick 6hrs break in between. kanasai!
so since the boyfriend started skool late at ard 12, we decided to have a breakfast together at LJS. it has been long since we had breakfast together and we simply endulge ourselves with Cajun Chicken. now, thinking about just makes me feel hungry. so then we headed back to his place to get some of his stuff done and we are on our seperate ways. i was heading home for another 3 hrs of break and he was heading to skool. thats was it...as clock ticks and it was 1 inute to 2pm, the baboon called and told me that i was supposed to be skool at that very minute for a makeup tutorial class. once again, kanasai!
i swear everyone was making me rush like crazy as thou there is no tmr and im super piss off! so i thought that the kanasai day will just end there but unfortunately it continues....

i was making my way to payar lebar to meet my loverboy then out of the blue this guy approached me. not of a farmiliar face at all, he tried introducing himself and was trying his luck for something, i dunno what. he was reallie trying hard for the conversation to continue but all thanks to the line," im late and i got to go. My fiancee waiting." i was off the hook.

so the rest of the day was just with the loverboy and it was just simply great. :)
no more kanasai days tmr..i hope :)

2008-05-14T20:16:00.000-07:00

the week had not been good. things happen and i believe it happen for a reason. dun worie. nothing between me and the boyfiee. it just the MUM.

the first tutorial quiz of the semester and i think i screwed it. to me, it was a little difficult for the first part of the paper. nevertheless, it was worth the try. i reallie dun like this topic. im super lost at this as there are no lectures and you're on your own studying all the necessary information. elaboration of lecture notes are no where to be found and no one is sure about what is really going on. Suggestion have been posted for further improvement and i hope its in super consideration.

the counting down days to meet my ONE and ONLY is still on and its the 3rd day of the week already. im super excited to meet him and i hope it would be real soon. :) i super duper miss my ayang so muchie2. haha. :) so to cure all the misses and the heartache, i indulge myself with window shopping and ice-cream. i guess that still works but i will turn bonkers if you keep not meeting me.. :( ...for once i felt neglected becoz u wanted to meet your frens instead of coming down to tamp to meet me. it made me felt as though you gave your friends more priority than your galfren. how sad! but..thank god that just didnt happen...and so i let it go.

oh yea, ayang's great-grandma passed away this late afternoon. my condolences to thier family and hope her soul will rest in peace. insyaallah. al-fatihah.

i guess thats for now. im down with assignment again. this time its hip teacher's assignment and i reallie like this subject, pharmaceutical legislation and marketing. so till now and let the pictures do the talking. :)

i wanted to get this but im not sure which clr to get for him? hmm... D, which one yg?

not for me but its just eye-catching :)

and this the long awaited pic of the lil niece..
Nur Alya Amirah

okies folks.
Adious.

2008-05-12T23:38:00.000-07:00

i'm just so frustrated with her. eveyrthing seems it be crumbling down on me and i need a breather. the only time i feel at ease when i know im thousands of feet away from her. i feel like screaming my head off her and telling her the misery building up in me that can no longer be quarantined. have you not done enough to always make me feel im useless and i just dont deserved to be where im standing, i'm never smart enough for you and therefore i don't deserve precious items from you. you likeit when one by one things are taken away from me. it seems like my misery is your joy. im broken and depressed. my Boncit is all i have to release the errupting tension, thanx. thats alll i need for now.

its has been a bad day today and Neutron was kind enuff to be there for me. :)

2008-05-10T17:11:00.000-07:00

i woke up in perspiration all over me. once again im being hunted by evil spirits and demons in my dream. okies, now im making everyone feel as though im stuck in some demon like drma like charmed or something. seriously, im being stuck with all this morons on earth lately and i swear i always end up in something either weird looking or scary. last night, it was horrible.

Since i have to do a make up with the Tuitee, i decided to spoil my Saturday morning with primary english and maths and someone did try testing my patience which made it even worse. he was giving the exams are over kinda attitude and my PSLE is so 10,000 days from now. how blooding sucking it was for me just to get his attention, only god knows!

Headed back home and i guess im stuck in between the tiger's claws for the day. shes gonna be home and that means adik and me has to stay home. despite the fact that its MOTHERS' DAY... i wanna go out and spent time iwth him coz i know she will be busy with her stuff n i doubt we're celebrating anything. so yea.

My Neutron has soccer today and it has been eeyons since i last attended his Forza matches other than yesterdae which was rather unplanned. i kinda like being there and watch the ball be chase by everyone in the field besides the fact just to see him play. Then you will see all the different reactions of the players. i just enjoy watching soccer now and guess wad, i onli started watching soccer when i gt to know him. surprising huh! before this, i would just fall asleep at any soccer matches and trust me sometims i would just snore my way away. im so hoping that i could make it for any of his soccer matches again.

ouh yea, i promise pictures of the lil one and soon i'll post it up. just finding the right time to upload all those pictures.

chilak-a peepz can i have all your pictures sent to me.pleasie. i miss you guys. dinner please...sometime soon. :)

2008-05-07T21:07:00.000-07:00

the day started at 12 for me and yesh the battle with the cold is over for me! isnt that great but still do have blockages once in awhile at the nasal passage way. so where should i begin talking about the day...

the PIPC lab wasnt that bad especially im having a class with the freshie. they are knda nice and not too bad at all. friendly i must say and definately always kind and readie to give a hand in anything you do. that exclude the providing the answers part. so i continued with another 3hrs of lab of PUO which i guess was full of gossips and laughters esp having the two clowns of TGO3 making stoppid faces and giving me jokes that i couldnt help but tickle my soul. knowing new people becomes a new assignment for me today. at least it helped to get closer with the unknown class and its ppl. plus somehow the surrounding which is the poeple that makes u wanna study. hence, its important. they are quite hilarious i should say and indeed i felt that this class has more "live" than mine. i bet it would be better if i were to be in this class then days in class woulnt be so mundane and bluey as ever.

looking forward to meet the ONE after two days of being away just gt me reallie excited. excited just to tell him about the day, the class, the new friends and everything that i went through when he was away. unforseen circumtances occur and though it didnt went that bad with a facade that covers all the holey patches, i still felt guilty of my unknown mistake(s). not knowing that it would hurt YOU, i just bluntly told you everything as if it would never pinch. im sorie. but plz dun be angry with me. all i wanted to do was just to let you know and make you a part of it but things just didnt work out. im just reallie praying that things will get better and i reallie miss you. sometimes im not that good in guessing how u feel so plz do tell me if i hit the wrong button. :)

i love you and i reallie do.
will you forgive me? :)

2008-05-06T19:21:00.000-07:00

See, i told you the cold was going to be worst...

okies it did and this time the doctor calls it an infection. Viral infection and here comes the medicine and the what nots. im starting to hate being sick nowadays coz it makes me real weak and the assignment pile is not is not reducing. more projects are coming in and quizes are about to pop soon. im not sure when but i just know that it is so near, coming soon. Though i gt xtra 2 days of "holiday", im going to school tmr coz i dun wan to replace any lab session for any subjects and it just comes down to only one reason for it... IT SUPER LECEH LAH!

The sick day was spent organizing all the year 1 notes properly in the cupboard as well as this sem notes in the file ready for binding. plus, i completed all this week assignments and left some for questioning the smart butts in class just how to solve it and also some internet reseach has to be done for some. Thats an achievement! The fpath will be done and over soon. i super cant wait for it to be over. sugguh me-lecehkan and sungguh memeningkan kepala. i started pulling my hair halfway thru editing and adding more info to that piece of wiki. goodness , gracious me. i swear Fundamental of Pathology is not at fun at all. it has suck every ounce out of my blood out of me for the past 4 hours...

The day tmr will start at 12pm and end at 6pm. there will be 6 hours of lab and im just hoping that lab wont drag but end earlier means i can go home faster. by then i would be a hungry monster and be as grumpy as ever. like i said, I'm angry when im hungry...hopefully the day would be a bliss and im looking forward to a sunny day.

I miss my smellybusuk ayang sooo sooo soo much. its two days since we last met and i miss him oreadie. i shall book him tmr and no one shall disturb us. can d? lets have something nice tmr but i've nothing in mind yet. nvm, we will decide tmr. last minute ideas always work. :)

shall prepare the brain cell for brain photocopy tmr and some space in the brain harddrive to store new information for wad i missed out today.

lalalala...im missin you. :)

2008-05-04T21:00:00.000-07:00

Being awake all night just make me feel super sick the whole day today. im having super horrible cold and i keep on sneezing the whole day. shitos! i hate being sick and then it will drive me down an emotional turmoil. for instance, today! how great! :(

okies, so the day was spent helping out at the catering in such sloppy attire for i realli was drenched out of emotions and mood to put on something nice. so i ended up with black silat tee and yellow berms. not so bad afterall i guess. then i rushed home to meet the boyfiee and nothing seem to stop me from meeting him though i had a super bad cold. ouh yea, we had lunch together for he craved for HOR FUN. and dropped off his uniform at jln besar before leaving for a bag hunt at tam-pines. we're looking for a backpack together but mayb will get it soon. since i wasnt feeling too good, we left early and yupz i was asked to have a good rest before skool hectic day starts tmr.

im just hoping that i wont be facing any monday blues tmr and i dun think i can afford too. like seriously. tmr seems to have all those higher cu subjects that i odd to pass and they are super difficult. the tutorials are also tmr and the penguin has my whole stack of notes and tutorial for brain photocopy. He seriously just scan the entire notes that i have into his braincells and i wonder if he ever read it after that. goodness me. but wateva it is, he is still that penguin that make me smile during and in between Stoopid classes that i have to go through everyday. he is that joker and clown that make me laugh when the boyfiee not around. Mr Penguin a.k.a kambing hitam ure appreciated. :)

the granny will be discharge tmr and hoping that things will be alrite. insyaallah.

the kid's mid years is this week and im praying hard that he would realli do well.

ouh yea babe, dun worie. you did your best to help her improve but since its not working for her then forget it. at least you know that shes no longer clinging to your nerves and draining excessive blood out of you. just go with the breeze and be hapie. :)

i miss the boyfriend like super alot! :) d, cpat2 call me...

2008-05-03T03:10:00.000-07:00

yes, im back. back where? the bloggie world.. an outlet i reallie miss just ranting away about the everyday life full of its own stories of different starting and ending an exceptional for mundane days. havent you noticed? i changed. i've changed the skin.. i just thot of a new change for a new, fresh page of journal. picking up the trails where i last left off. i decided on something simple. no more vintage.

okies, the day have been busy for me. got too many things to handle with my too tiny lil palms. the granny gt admitted again and this time i faced that traumatic incidence before the ambulance rushed her to the nearest hosp. this time it was a relapsed of her previous breathing problem as well as her low glucose level in her body. she was so sick yet so afrid and thats the first i see her in fear. i was so afraid to lose her at the same time and everybody was preparing for the worse. no signs of hope and her health deterioate day by day.thats when i realised praying helps to calm oneself down. alhamdulilah, she is showing great signs of improvement now and im hoping the best for her. hopefully things will be better.

its 3am in the morning and im not even slping yet all beoz im super stress with one of my subjects, fundamentals of pathology. i dun know wad to include anymore in the group discussion and i seems lost in the subject. an e-learning subject and i swear i hate it. no proper teaching done and the everything depends on the knowledge you read up on your own.wth. grrr!

boyfiee has been a great one, hes super understanding about the less time spent due to frequent travels to the hospital. sometimes, there was neither a late nite chatter together or even a meet up during the day. goodnes! i felt presurised. i super miss my boncit! in times like this, i feel so fortunate to have someone like him and there are many things about his characteristics that make me fall deeper for him. u know wad darlx, no one is as crazy as you over me and i love you so much! :) you always make my day as well as the colourful world go rounddd for me.

ouh yea, i mis the chilak people and the feeza and friends company and many many moree. to many to name...people beep oritez?! Loves you babes.! :)

2008-04-25T15:43:00.000-07:00

okies. back in skool means im back in the world of bloggin. all becoz the modem at home brokedown again. how absurb! its like one after the other and the next thing i know im on a quest collecting and saving up like super desperately....

moving oon..
the boyfiee = the boyfriend has a blog! Wow! i know, he has began bloggin since i dunno wen and now im thinking if i did kind of influence him to have this lil kind of outlet to spread the joy of lifting dead log off your chest.

theres this farnie yet stoopid incident that happen in skool. i was on the phone with IBU then guess wad, as i was leaving the class i wanted to "salam" my teacher who is a chinese. i was for a moment unconsicous of my actions which is weird. never had that happening to me before but theres always a first time for everything right?

guess wad, this time is not me being picky and wanting to change classes but instead my teacher insisted on me having my class changed. something to do with different subject content for different courses? somewhere along the line i guess..im juz chilling and going on with the flow...

there will be seni prac tonight and im just lazy to train my lethargic muscles and get them into actions. to add up, im sick and tired of everything actuallie. i just want to get done and over with this, get something for the team and leave the sport for good. how about that?

its 15 mins to go and im going for tuition then im skipping the training for the great hour tonight. i need a break people. :)

timetable is changing again and im looking forward. no more fridays for me i hope except for stoopid lecture. and.... the fujitsu is coming my way maybe next week. waiting for the banking aunty to return from a getaway. :) oh yea pictures too babes!

2008-04-22T11:43:00.000-07:00

okies..i have moved. i dunnow wht with the sudden change in url but i just thought of a chnge. skool started and its all coming down on me. this sem is either you make it for break it..that all i'm all out to do..cant afford to make any stoopid bound mistakes nad time is running out...ouh yeah, i will update about the burfdae soon and the hhapiie times too. sooooooon.....just stay tune and wait for updates and more upgradings. hahahz.

2008-03-24T12:06:00.000-07:00

yohooo! the stoppid supps are over for me and now im left with nothing more while other has to still struggle for the few more papers to go. okies. todae's supps was a stoppid one. i was realli super piss and i finally gave up. the boyfriend gt to know all thanks to the biggy mouth that i have here attached to this body of mine..and so i gt a lil reprimand and some its okie pujuk-ing!

life's been great and i guess im just busy with training after training then tuitions and the stay home days. i realised i have just a partner whose parents too are just like mine. my P1 buddy Dian. how great and only she would understand the disgusting and shit feelings that engulfed your empty soul when ure home alone doing nothing but rotting the day away. i feel like i wasted these precious time in life that odd to be spent doing something worth it. i guess im up with nothing today so stying home with the best companion,since boyfriend is away, the untimate secret keeper, fat gobules.

ouh yeah, training yest was a blast. we did all the syncronising and we had all the fun. the sister and the grey eyes just make the best partners for this. i know that grey eyes is super excited about this and so are we. lets just say, we gt style. hahahz. yupz, we sure do :)

the boyfriend being away is so weird. thou hes just a call away but still i dun get to see him till the week ends. i tink i gt the hang of it since the last tym he left for KL which was just a few wks back and i find it easier coping without him this time... but not to worie..hes just a call away so just call lah wen i miss him rite? and enigma will go like.. like duh di!

(enigma) hey babe, when's the friday clique going for the getaway? i cant wait and we are all set :)

2008-03-18T11:17:00.000-07:00

since everyone gt their chance to have that begok nak mampos day and finally its my turn! like seriously. today was super begok like shit can? firstly, i look wrongly at the timetable. i was supposed to start at 2pm but eventually i was really convinced that my revision starts at 11am. happily skipping my way to class and opening the huge door onli to realise that i was at the wroong class and what more at the wrong time! how much more begok can i be? goodness gracious! what have gotten into me...

i was reflecting back on life yesterdae. i think i learnt something new or maybe it is something that have gotten its point redrill into these puny brain cells of mine. its about being humble and appreaciative in any situation at any cost. she just gt myself pulling myself backwards for the mnute of time and realising how much one should be thankful for the help that have been given and humble with all the compliments showered. shouldnt you be appreaciatve instead of indirectly shoving the person away with those gigantic effect words that would hurt the other party feelings? i just think you need more than just to hav matured mind.if you dont learn in time to stop hurting than the lil one will follow. thats wen i could say nothing but just to feel sorry for you.

i cant wait to meet my neutron! :)
sygggg neutron...

2008-03-17T13:40:00.000-07:00

yes, indeed im bac in the bloggin world and trying to blog out evey shit that happens in my life. okies, afterall its not all shit that happens. there are happie and nice times too. like seriously. so i was thinking, since i missed out quite a bit of my life story i shall just update the important and leave the unimportant ones behind...i hope its fine.

so after the papers which wasnt that bad afterall, i spent my time having fun and happily spent the first tution pay that came in. it was just splendid having the money leaving the purse like water. haiz. money doesnt come that easily but you can just spent in a minute. after a few days, it was the arrival of the new family member. her name is Alya Nur Amirah Bte Sulaiman. my granny's first cicit. i was excited and so was everyone else. since it was my holz and the mum needed some help as she was down with chicken pox, so i was the darling aunty to mend to her every needs. yupz, for once i felt like a mother with a child. boyfriend laughs at the stoopid thought of mine and would also add to the crazy ideas and dreams i was hallucinating during the free intervals of mine when she wasnt under my care. she was a dear. i would upload a picture of her soon.

the other days wold be spent for training after training, tuitions after tuition and at home rotting the day away. some days it was fun while others remain a boring lifeless life that i never wanted, spending on the couch the whole day. it was dreadful. sometimes, enigma and banker and my draling neutron would come over and pay a visit that we would spent bliss moments together the friday cliques happie times...oh yea, yesterdae daddy had this competition in conjuction of east coast sports week so the one participated was no other than some of the national athletes...it wasnt that busy but it went well thou it was a last minute thing. boyfriend clinch 3rd thou his dislocated cacat hand came out in the middle of his jurus. i was freaking esctatic! so proud of you!

so, it the 17th of march today and it has been 8th months. how fast time fly pass that i did not realised how much special and sweet times i had with him. having him around just makes me live in paradise. he is my esctasy, my obsession and like i always say, my every essential in life....days spent with him are treasured for those are the glimpse of hapie moments in life that would accompany this soul of mine till the day i say goodbye. you're always there for me when i needed you and there is nothing more that i could ask for than to be with you. i just love you so much and you're always the apple of my eye. :)

the rest of the day would be spent having late lunch with boyfriend then i guess would be spent at home with my lovely fat gobule a.k.a the ultimate secret keeper.

i miss the CHILLAK- A- GANG , LOVABLES , TP CLIQUE and FRIDAY CLIQUE and definately the

BOYFRIEND!

i miss firhan lah...like super can?

d, cepat2 finish skool...plz?

2008-02-19T12:56:00.000-08:00

the weeks had been a blast i must say. all caught up with the never ending workload and the always piling up of more and more work to be done..im tired already and i feel im at the edge of giving up. almost the same feeling i had when the last time coach asnadi made me run 2,4o run thing. shit! i feel im at the top of the cliff, getting ready to let go and give up in the massive work load that makes me go crazy for exams is just next weekk!!!

i guess patience is the only way out for in this situation where im a helpless patient waiting to just getting this utter bitter period of lunatism to be over. to double the sorrow and pain that i am facing, i just have to suffer to huge lip ulcers joined together combining into one huge giganto one. boyfriend thinks that it is the biggest he have seen and now i feel we are changing roles..its more like im the engineer and he is the future doctor...he kept on reminding about the ample rest and the extra interval for water parade and of course the meal part which is my favourite or should i say often missed out part...skipping meals is just part of my routine especially when im too caught up with my work.

so today, it is just revision and revision. mundane isnt it? but im motivating myself and looking forward to the holidays that awaits ahead. then i will be pack with the never ending activies and make this lifeless soul a happie one. return the joyful and cheerry me will you..oh almighty Allah? help me in this rough journey of mine and this is all that i ask for?..amin.

moving on.. so now, im in school for another few hours of revision..about 5 hours and then im will be off to meet the boyfriend for dinner. at least a getaway to look forward too...then when the nite is still young for me, i will got to mug for the upcoming exams. here comes the studious DEE!

Spongebob that boyfriend bought for me will company for the study tonite since ayiee is off for cambodia till the end of the week and dearies, avid readiers of mine, i will not be updating till the exams are over. Love you sweeties and of course..boyfriend, you're simply missed!

Enigma, GOODluck for your UM!I'm going to miss you dearie..muackz! syg awak! :)

Those who left for Danga Bay, goodluck for the championships too... :)

always remember..didi loves all of you. :)

2008-02-09T23:14:00.000-08:00

Hapiie Burfdae June! :)

Happie Burfdae Paman! ...

a year older, a year wiser.... best wishes in future endeavours! :)

oh yeah, the boyfriend and i gt addicted to this song and we continouslysing the song whenever we could. baby, you're my addiction...and this song tells it all...

Tanpamu
Akulah yang rindu
Tanpa dirimu...
Hilanglah manjaku..
Kasihmu kata naluriku
Cinta mu hanya di hatiku.....

Izinkan aku selami hatimu
Izinkan aku bisikkan cintaku
Janjiku pada kau yang satu
Diriku hanyalah untukmu...
(
corus)*
Engkaulah yang satu
Pujaan hatikuS
ucinya cintaku...padamu....
Sayangku..
Hanya kau yang satuKasih dan rinduku...
Milikmu...

2008-02-07T19:09:00.000-08:00

Happy Burfdae Adik!

yesh! its the festive season ringing again. yohooo. here comes the never ending hong bao showering everywhere and im here all readie to start collecting and carry on with the shopping list. hahahz. yupz, i will not to forget the delicious goodies and yummy food that are getting prepared and will be serve. seriously, i cant wait and i swear im going to get fat! here comes the holidays...

2008-02-06T22:06:00.000-08:00

lets start off the entry with this...

HAPPIE BURFDAE ZARIFAH ADILAH a.k.a MY GUARDIAN ANGEL!!!

lets your days be filled with warm smiles and joy. i pray for nothing more than your happiness and best wishes in future endeavours...Loves you too darlx! :)

so yes, it is the start of the holidays. the holidays that will be bring ample rest and dreadful sorrow for im not meeting the boyfriend lah! thankx eh! that simply means i reallie have to wait patiently for the days to passed and make sure that i wont have any emotional roller coaster for god knows wad reason. maybe something like.. missing the boyfriend? but u know wad, its okie coz he is only a call away... rite b??

the day was spent with the chillak-a gang though it wasnt the whole gang yet but at least it a oh finally thing. it was a long long thing since i last did hang out with them. so it was joyful though it was only for a while. then im off to meet the boyfriend at cityhall. we are supposed to meet up at bugis to get fat gobules's present for his burfdae is tmr.. unfortunately change of plans and i suddenly couldnt find the DKNY watch he wanted.... panicked i was and as the couple walked around the ghostly marina square, citychain wasnt close. so all hail city chain for having that model that this favourite brother of mine is aiming for. it cost a bomb for me i must say. aniway, got it and we spent time before having to part for several days. this time i asked for permission k from madam J...! hahahz!

ouh yea, since yesterdae was the mother's burfdae, my dearest aunty bought her the bag that i have aimed for all this while. thankx eh! its the new edition of GUCCI and i saw it in one of the her world's magazine. and it cost a bomb of simply $2200! i did went crazy and she gt that bag that i really wanted....but guess wad, mummy says i can use it wenever i want it. hahah. its okie if it doesnt belong to me but at least i could still wear it and name it my property...hahah.

i guess that is for now. im having nothing else installed besides the obvious fact that im missin my superman a lot like reallie alot... it was nice to bump to your pri 1 friends again, that clique that u first knew and gt hook to. i miss being a KC-ian with uniform and boyfriend thinks im acting like a perfect typical KC-ian, those bitchy kinds, when i "acted" out the scene with the GUCCI BAG! thank eh B, but u know wad.. i still love you. hahahz. muackz!

2008-02-05T22:25:00.000-08:00

the days passed smoothly and troubles seems far away. i feel more calm and organised. the two days that had passed was simply relax and not much work done since the festive mood is swinging in the air so this week should be a breeze. plus the holidays will give me extra rest and an extra time to complete all the uncompleted assignments.. so much things to do but yet too little time but still on a lighter note, i still have holidays to look forward to.... oh yea, one more thing to add on to the list, STOP PROCRASTINATING!

so today was a great one. i finally get to catch a movie with the beloved superman after a looooooong time. yes, indeed. since the ladie wanted to watch 27 dresses, he went along with it. afterall, 27 dresses was not that bad or the fantastic. it was just the average romantic love story with a twist of unexpected ending. so you should catch it with you love weddings too! :) then after that we hang out for awhile before i left for home to run errands for the burfdae girl. did some errands with daddy and we were done for the day. so had dinner and daddy broke some unexpected news. i was appalled and it fell on deaf ears at first but eventually it sank in to the brain cells.... im in denial. things cant happen this way....

aniway, to clear the cloudy mood away and sing a burfdae song to Mummy for its her burfdae today!

HAPPIE BURFDAE MUMMY!

May the days to come be a happier one for you and nothing in this world should make your day a cloudy one. You might always be busy but you're always going to be the best mum in the world and you're my mother.

okies dokies follks. thats for the day. i love you my superman.

ps: enigma, dont mention. thanks for the yellow pillow anyway.
i miss the friday clique and chillk-a gang! :)\
boyfriend, you're obviously missed!.. dont ask!

2008-02-02T16:11:00.000-08:00

a day without a stick makes the boyfriend an angry man...

yupz it true. that is what happen when someone lives to0 dependant on those cigarettes but u know what there is always room for a change and the boyfriend is trying real hard to throw all those harmful sto0pid sticks far away from him. hes changing and hes moving on. i have faith in him.

So, finally the weekends are here again. im glad but the work load is terrible. exams are just around the corner, i have alot to read up and memorise and all. next week would be a great week to start as i onli have two days of skool. gerek kan.?? i know, TP wad..no its more like applied science what...

Besides, i also cant wait for this season to be over. most of the prices of goods have gone up as the last minute shoppers rushed through the last minute shopping for the new year and i just have to wait for the season to end so that i could go shopping and endulge me with more shoping. so now, tighten the pocket knot and continue saving. i have quite a list of shoping to do and i simply cant wait for all of this to begin.

bottomline, im reallie hoping that the weekends will be great getaway from skool and im hoping to complete the necessary homework by nex wednesday. goodness gracious me. indeed , i have alot more to do and i shall chiong all the way till the semester is over for me. Then, here comes the busy schedule of mine of tuition with firdaus.., then Tp silat, then the frequent meet ups with the boyfriend and also the friday clique catch up or a surprise for enigma if she is still staying at her hall which i hope so, the meetups with the chillak-a gang, the ncc training every friday and the chalets and gathering that are all planned up for the two whole months...im just super excited.

oh yea, today's soccer for my superman will be held at punggol. super far lah can.. i definately wanted to go but im caught with the family business. shuts man! i too skipped the SP and TP trial today as well as the chillak-a gang outing. i hope the boyfriend wins for his match and make his goal again and the rest, hope that the outings will be a fun time out. sorie guys. :)

he is the apple of my eye.. and i miss you so much baby. :)

2008-02-01T10:15:00.000-08:00

Morning Earthlings!

okies, the sun is shinning bright into my room and im loving the heat that is trapped inside this pinky room of mine. its makes it feel so warm and cosy and its so complete.. the night sleep just got me missing the boyfriend too much and i juz dont know why...

thinking about the future just makes me feel so ruffled and eager for what is install for me in the future. all i think now it getting through this diploma of mine and pursuing a degree in maybe pharmaceuticals or teaching though i know i have a greater interest and passion for teaching but that somehow makes me feel like its a waste of time for me to spent time in the medical field. im still contemplating but now im determined to get through the poly well. so after the degree, i want to build a career and be as financially stable as possible and wait for my superman to propose to me. rite b? thats what you going to do rite? at the top of the ferris wheel? kan? kan?kan?

The i would be hapilly married with kids but just two and i just want to spent the rest of my life laughing, smilling, working and having a great family with just my superman. you know what b, i'm going to wait for as long as you need to get what you want in life first though it will take you a thousand years for you to accomplish it. i will still wait no matter how long you take for you is the only one that i want to be with my whole life. you're my knight in shining amour and nothing or nobody is going to change that...i love you soo much.

i was bloghopping last night and i discovered something. something that i think some of my friends know it already but nothing was mention either it doesnt matter them anymore or they cant be bothered or they dont want to get involved. the moment i read the entry, i felt it clingin to my heart as though it was close to me. i know i threw that feeling long ago but somehow i felt for her. she went through exactly what i went through. sometimes i just wonder why people dont learn from their mistakes. hurting someone else just like you did to the girl before makes me feel that you never learn and you're just going to continue doing it till you find the perfect one. i know its your choice and you do what you want to do. somehow have you ever wondered what it feels like being in her shoes? thinking that he is still in love with you but you guys cant be together and in the end, you find out that he is with someone else? how hurtful can it be? how pernicious can you be? i thought i didnt understand you then but it seems i can never understand you even as a friend. im just speechless for what you have done. it seems like you will never change and girls are like shirts you change everyday. you're a nice guy but this is not how you play the game. its a pity you dont learn. im writting this coz i know you're reading.

i guess that for the morning folks and im heading to skool onli in the afternoon for a class then im done for the day which will be a late evening...thankx eh!..... st00opid presentation slides are not ready... darn!

2008-01-31T22:23:00.000-08:00

the weekends are approaching and im glad its finallly here again. im always looking forward to the weekends thou im not meeting the boyfriend(supposedly). somehow somewhere we will still meet up. we just have our ways to have glimpse of each other. boyfriend you're just loved!

okies, the unblogged days are fine and it went quite a breeze. the tests and quizes was done pretty much well and im satisfied of the outcome though i know i could have done better. still, i will take baby steps to show my progress and i know Dr Chan always worry about her students. she kept buggin me to ask her questions and clarify before the exams. i know the xams are not over yet but guess what, we have came up with our holiday's plan. for now, i know there will be a class chalet then we have many2 outings and then i know the boyfriend days are reserved so are the chillak-a gang and also the friday clique. ouh yea, tuition kid's days are also reserved. so basically im all set for the holidays but not the exams. im studying. yes, abit and abit day by day and trying my best to complete all the neccesary projects on time before due. haiz. skool..skool..skool. im so caught up and i need to breathe. i need a getaway.!!!!

its just another day and im onlu left with 2 weeks of skool. yoh0ooo! cant wait man. but too bad, the boyfriend will be having skool. shuts! :)

im going to have a surprise for all you. soooon....patiently wait for more updates and you will know what is it. hahahz.

Days with boyfriend are cherished and laughters never seem to fade away. i will never stop laughing and smilling and he's always the reason for it. i love you my intan payung smelly belly & heart melting pumpkinz! Muackz!

2008-01-28T20:24:00.000-08:00

the day was great! i super love today.

okies. this is how it went. the morning sun and brightly warm weather gt this lazy bum studying. studying her favourite subject. hahaz. it is anyway. so the study time end at ard 10plus and i gt ready and left for school. hahahz. this time i dunch know why i took a cab to skool for god knows what reason. mayb becoz, i just gt my skool money lah...hahahz

the test was manageable and i hope i would a secure an A at least or mayb a B...since i was lazy enuff to educate my soul with more cell biology knowledge, i decided to watch some movie with Din at the library. so we watchd devil's wear prada and amused ourselves with her clumpsy-ness and the domineering yet demanding miranda priestly. such bee-yatch!

the next part of the day was spending time wih the boyfriend. we met at payar lebar and headed down to peninsuala to get the grandpa's leg support at some sport shop. quite cool actually. then we walked around and again indulge ourselves with delicious serving at breeks again. the whole time we were together we were just laughing and laughing and tickling our souls with i duno what actuallie. i just know that it is farnie...hahahz. so then we headed back to tampines and as we make our way to the bus-stop, we were laughing about some language error that he made and somehow it got linked to KAHWIN!(so far can...) then eveyrthing about it just kept spilling out our mouths like a fast flowing river. we were laughing till i sat down in the middle of no where and we almost roll on the floor laughing. then, there was one point when he asked me, " B, how much will the dowry be?" and spontaneous $10 000 just slip off my mouth. then he said," huh? so much? i dont want arh..im onli going to memorise the quran for you..." i just stopped at stared into him and asked if he wanted to marry me..he just started laughing like a godzilla then the next moment he wanted to hail a cab to ROM tonite. hahahz. i started laughing hysterically till i could tear then he shouted from where he was...B! YOU NAK KAHWIN DENGAN I TAK? (B, do u want to get to married to me) the voice echoed to the blocks near by and i just blush! so MALU LA! the next thing you know, we just sat down and continue laughing till the bus came and our ways part.

the day was just super hillarious for me. it has been so long since last laughed that much and thank you so much baby. you just make my day again. from the food to the jokes to the crazy self and everything else about you that make me love you soo much. you're just my everything. i love you.

hes my adorable!

i guess that about it folks. nitez. adious amigious.

2008-01-27T17:23:00.000-08:00

its the last day of the week. im not estatic or sad or whatever feelings that may strike the rest of you. i feel so blank and hollow and tired and suffocated...to much for my spongy brains to absorb and i reallie have to make this spongy brain of mine absorb all the details for tmr's HPI test. a supposedly favourite subject of mine. the clock is ticking, im procrastinating and the page seem so argh!...

aniway, the day was quite a day though to be frank i didnt do much. Madrasah are getaways from all the facts of sciences and anything that gt to do with the body. its the only time im away from the heavy loaded facts of the human body. so todae we discussed about something interesting. Uztazah came up with the topic of asna-Ulhusna then came about anak haram then lastly farait. being exposed to such topics gave a different perspective of everything of course increase my general/agama knowledge. sometimes, just knowing the halal and haram of things is just not enough.

boyfriend text me and informed me of the results. he got 2nd for the soccer finals at Safra. it is okie dear.. of course, he wasnt happy with the results but afterall i still tink your my best footballer in town.hahah. u know what, i just miss the boyfriend. so much.

oh yea, reading the news headlines gt me into a surprised. he was off the life support, then his health improves in condition and he could finally taste biscuits again and the next thing u know he is gone forever. Mr Soeharto, Indonesia's ex-president just passed away. looking back into indonesia's economic prgress, i think under the throne of late Mr Soeharto the economic progresses much better and he was one of the pioneers foundation builder of indonesia. he has contributed alot to the country and i think his people should be pay their last respects for him. i think people should learn to forgive and forget and try to appreciate contribution made by others. he definately did his part during his presidency. lets have a minute of silence....

okis, before i turned nonsense and rabble rubbish here, lets end the post of the day here and in awhile, i think i will be hitting the books again. like seriously. saiyonara people. like june will put it..saiyonara earthlings! hahahz.

cheers..! :)

Ps: i miss everyone. from the chillak-a gang to the friday clique to the kambings and the chain that follows behind it...

2008-01-26T20:59:00.000-08:00

ahhh! i hate getting up early. i need the beauty sleep. like seriously.

so i gt up early and decided to head straight to blk 852 but instead i called up the kambings and realised that i didnt know my way there. so we met up and we left together with hashbrown as breakfast. i was happie. maybe the morning sun gt me smilling so wide that i sang my way to skool. bee gees, how deep is you love? that was the song. can u imagine? diy singing...like kambing hitam would say, just shut up! your voice suck. but too bad! boyfriend dont think so..rite b?

ouhkies. newspaper collection is a quite tiring job and it left me energy-less and sweaty and smelly and what else hungry! it drained my entire energy with piles and piles of unwanted stack of dusty and smelly newspapers that are just fit to be recycled. everybody was exhausted and deadbeat. by the end of the day, we played the stupid tricks games we could tink off and teach each other the games that we know off. Jordon, the team leader, was indeed patient and went crazy with us as the collection stack could fill the mover lorry full. everybody was tired and we were only done at 1:30pm. after which, i went to meet the boyfriend and had a splendid lunch at breeks. ahahz. its was indeed a meal. as im typing this then i remember that we didnt take PICTURES! HOW GONG! Doink! ...

okies. so we were off in a while and wen i gt home, i had all the proper hygiene processes done first and gt into a nap. thats how debilitated i was at the end of the day. mum gt me up during maghrib and here i am now typing out the wonderful day i had. the pictures will make up the entire scenario of the newpaper collection that happen today. enjoy folks!

Chillak-a gang: hey, thanks for the visit yesterdae. yes indeed it was a time that i miss doing the most. sorrie i cant hang out cum group study todae at esplanade with you guys. maybe next time kies?

Boyfriend: you made me laugh so much and made me feel as thou it was the only thing you wan to hear in this world. indeed the laughter made me a happier person todae. you made me smile so much as though it was the only thing that you wanna see. your presence just make my heart skip a beat and faster each time. i need no one else as much as i need you and i love you so much. i did enjoy my splendid lunch with you and thank you...muackz!

2008-01-25T23:59:00.000-08:00

the day did start later for me and im glad it did. at least, i have some time to spent with msyelf and get a chill pill after a whole stressful week loaded with test. next week is coming up with a few more test and definately the days are going to get much tougher and busier with extra work and much preparation for the upcoming examinations in late feb. goodness me! time do flies reallie fast and by now i can feel the examination heat. the environment seems quite a challenge and everyone is competitive. this time i wanna keep to the beat and hoping not to die out at the last lapse and give my best shot to get that GPA. afterall, the mum gt a suprised install for me and i think baby, you also do have a present for me rite?

so yesterdae, after LAtty L checked on my work for the presentation. she liked the idea of it and she added more to it so i could improve and have a better presentation. somehow i feel she has something against me and i have to really do well for this speech for the impromtu which i was supposedly score with good grades, she gave a 36.5 for it? what the hell? someone who did worse gt better.. thankx eh! cheat my feelings only. so the boyfriend cheered me up as we shopped for my mum's groceriies. such a darlx and you made me smile. i love you. we were laughing and laughing and PMS strike the moment i gt home. the feel of rage and frustration just wrapped my entire soul and gt me cloudy. i text the boyfriend and he sent me something that gt me smilling to myself. thank you syg!

oh yea, the chindelella = chillak-a gang gave me a surprise visit! thankx you guys and you guys just cleared all those cloudy moments of the PMS period. hahahz. we laughed about everything and the good old days are just missed. i just so many things we did. the runway toilet..the everyday parkway lunch/hangout..airport days...ncc moments..4/4 gathering.. the pits after pits of bbq and many more. they are just countless and i realli tresure and miss them so much... thankx all you for the surprise visit. its a pleasure to have you guys over. so they left at 11 plus.

so now, after helping mum out wiith the delicacies for tmr, i think i shall hit the pillows and be eary tmr for the CIP. god, another CIP to be done and over with. nitz. Loves.

2008-01-24T23:12:00.000-08:00

The world is not evil.
somehow or rather, i believe that statement to a ceratin extent. yes i really do believe it and there is a reason why i do. since yesterdae was one of the most ragg days i ever had in the world by having 3 tests on the various subjects, today i had the most relaxed days i ever had in my life. this is how the day went for me. i came to skool at 9am for my beloved HPI lecture for about 2 hours and i have nothing till 3pm which will be for an hour and another hour of skool at 6pm till 7pm. the rest of the days are my break time. isnt the timetable crazy. so, indeed i took the easiest way out and skip the hour lecture in noon and came back for tutorial at 6-7pm.. i went home after early branch with the kambings and had a good "rest" at home. instead, i was stuck with homechores since the new bibik didnt know much at all. so now, present to you the new housekeeper.. and its ME! thank you.. not!

after class i met up with the boyfriend and we chill for a while having the "episode" like how hotbigbutt will put it before we part. the little busrides and bus-stops walks are cherished. laughter never seem to fade and i feel im laughing more like a godzilla nowadays. all thankx to boyfriend a.k.a the sweetheart. the mum surprised me with hot news. im finally getting the Lappy! its a long await and i cant wait for it. like seriously! ahahz. shall update if the lastest updates about the lappy. hope this time it wil happen.

oh yea. Olevels results are out and the cousin did well for it. congrats! (haha,i did betA! HAHA) tmr's timetable is quite chill thou. lectures in the morning n tutorials starts at 2pm so, i tink i will hop down to skool for tutorial n the Latty L's class which will end at 5pm n i have the rest of the day wif the boyfriend i think..hope so. okies, i gt to complete's tmr's assignments n im off now folks...

2008-01-23T23:21:00.000-08:00

today is the worst morning ever! goodness me! its the first time in my life that im loaded with 3 tests of 3 different subjects and all are such pain in ass's kind of subjects. i almost turned lunatic. one of the 3 subjects is my favourite while the other 2 i think im goin to flung like seriously. im not that prepared and the questions was tough. its not like the normal quiz where i could pull my way through the bullshits of facts but this time its actual facts baby! if you dont know then it reallie means that you reallie dunch know about it especially bmic! thats the worst. everyone coming out of the lecture theatre and complaint about how ridiculously tough the paper had been set. for eg: "explain the diference between pentose phospate pathway and glyycolysis. describe the process and list the end products". i was like what..!? for cell biology, i know i made a number of errors as i have been reading and misintepreting the questions wrongly. the change of specs is required. lastly the favourite subject which is known as Human Physiology and Immunology is the best i think for i have confidence is blooming well for it. i got it right but for some reasons i just feel my answers is lask of some facts that should be included. its okie. its over. what's done is done and it should be as it is. No use crying over spilled milk but instead mend those mistakes and BE MORE PREPARED NEXT TiME. im determined.

the moment i ended the first paper which was horriby done, i called the boyfriend. there you go, the fiirst nag i gt for procrastinating too much but words of comfort just drilled into the eardrums the nex moment. it was a long day today and it ended with lab. all hail to lab! lab work can be shitty ones too sometimes especially when the lab techs lose your samples. so instead, we had to share with the group. thankx to kambing's hitam group and kambing mutate's group for the samples. after lab, i jus need to run away from skool and be with the friday clique = the stress reliever! thsi time we headed to enigma's crib for boyfriend miss his scandal= the baby and hafiz is coming over for the first time. so we had dinner then im off home with the boyfriend. he sent me again despite being late for the religious nite class at home. if im used as the reason, the parents never seem to say anything. hmmm? i think im just loved! hahahz. :) sorrie baby.

as i sit here allowing those butter fingers of mine to rattle across the keyboards and type out the chronicles of life, the work on the table just piles and loads up like nobody's business. the boyfriend just completed one of my assignment on emotional health. okies, the LAtty L's class will be having a prepared speech and my group will be doing on health. i know its not that interesting but who cares the content and the medical aspect of it plays a bigger part. so we brainstorm about it and we are covering the different aspect of it which is like mental, environment,food and emotional health. my other friends are doing more interesting subjects like plastic surgery, beauty, abortion and euthanasia. we are supposed to talked about more controversial topics and discuss what are our views and we have to have back up answers if questions do come pointing to us about others' opposing facts and opinion. the best part is, we will be assesed individually though it is a group work. since boyfriend helped me to complete mine, im helping my other friends. so i looked up on abortions and some videos infact made me weep. weep in fear and terror. im petrified. im disgusted and im at a state of discountenance. not knowing that pails and pails of unborn fetus are aborted every day and no one feel ashame and at fault for what wrong they have done. a quote from mother theresa, " if a mother could kill her own child, how could we stop others from killing each other". i have nothing to say for the felonious parents of these unborn unculpable and unharmless little ones bt mayb they do have a valid reason for what they have done...

so i guess thats for the day folks. its quite a day i must say.

thanx boyfriend, you just make my day and i simply miss you so much...nothing seems to be enuff. you made my day again today and seeing you jus make me live in those estatic moments everyday. yo make me feel complete.

2008-01-22T20:24:00.000-08:00

i just need an outlet to express how confused, shitty and i dunch know wad im feeling kinda thing at this very moment..before i hit the books, i just had to let all of this out....i know im sensitive and sometimes especially in times of pre-period days, im extra sensitive. i'm just PMS-ing.i dunch know why i should feel this way. shitty days are here again and i swear im not sure wad poke this puny fragile heart of mine. i was laughing and enjoyin every second i had with you but the nex moment after that i just felt so down, so out of place and so everything is not right kinda thing. i just feeling so shitty! be assured that im not angry of what you said but the shit days arre just here again. if i did say something wrong about certain issues, then i apologise. and sometimes i just dont mean them but i had to say to make feel beta wen insecurity engulfed me. i know that all opinion and views are not accepted and i know that i should not have said so much nasty things about her. somehow i say those nasty stuffs when i feel provoked and insecurities inflict.

no matter wad happens, i just love you so much.

you're just irreplaceable.

2008-01-19T17:09:00.000-08:00

its the weekends! its finally here and im so glad that the rest days are here again. so the weekends are all planned out oreadie thou some are just there cause it is a weekly thing. yea. So, today will be kak's Mel 7th months kenduri doa selamat and everybody is super busy at home, cooking is huge pots which probably could fit me in too.somehow,i feel as though tmr is raya oreadie.

in a matter of months, she will be a mother soon and yupz im super estatic cause there will be an addition to the family. it is going to be a girl and so what i told her husband was, the kid will turn out like me and speak like a convent girl. the moment he heard that, he just glared at me and say NO WAY!..then he started laughing like a gorilla. thankx arh abg man! he always ave this mindset that convent girls lke me have this bitchy thing going on in them. goodness me, that is something which i beg to differ. we, convent girls, are definately not of that sort unless in certain circumtances and in fact we are women with grace and integrity.(okies. sorry, i lifted that from my two years ago journal...)

On sunday, on the other hand, i'll be having madrasah in the morning and then i mite be meeting the neutron or i mite head down to perses for intergrasio(seni) comp. im stuck in between soccer and the silat comp. shall think it over tonite and make my decision over late nite conversations with Neutron...

oh yea, something just came across my mind. some singaporeans are kibitzer. they always get their nose's up anyone's conversation and gives and unwanted advice or comment. i was at giant yesterdae and eventually something tickles me. there was this boy who was crying frantically and showing his mum the gun hand sign just because his mum did not allow him to purchase the sweets he wanted. the way he did it was so cute and it just made me turn around to my cousin and talked to her about it. eventually the person infront of me, eavedropped! she turned around to her kids and husband and gave me a comment indirectly before giving me a smirk! she was saying something like it isnt funny for he doesnt know the consequences of his actions and bla bla bla! goodness bitch, why do you have to do that!?! get a life. its a free world and dont you think people have different views and opinion about things. so, let me say something for its a free world and i do not need your comment at all. i just dont understand these nosey singporeans.

aniway, enough about the old hagg.

i just missed the boyfren a.k.a my superman!. :)

oh yea, yesterdae the friday clique had a splendid time and the those times where we just hang out and share those dirty secrets are just missed. :) hahahz. let have a time out soon.

Oh yea, Happie Burfdae rannessa! sorrie babe, i cant make it for today's bbq. Hope the year will be a great one for you and all cheers to your future endeavours and success. :)

2008-01-18T12:12:00.000-08:00

Such a bright morning today. finally, after the days of early wake ups to catch the first lectures of the morning, i finally get to sleep til 9am today. that a bonus to me!

Although yesterdae was D day for us. still we couldnt spent much time together all beacause of skool. both of us ended around 6 and i could meet him up for dinner then the next thing i know i was on the bus home with him. he sent me off to the palace. on the ride home, we were laughing and making fun of this man who talks loudly in the bus as thou it was meant for the entire bus to listen to his conversation. if the coversation was decent it was fine but unfortunately not. so can u imagine?

Gt home and had dinner again before indulging and tickling my soul my such humour that made me laugh like a godzilla. american idol indeed was the show. it was fun watching with the fat one and he just made me laughed even more.

Today, skool starts at 3pm for me. all thanks to Dr alex for cancelling his lessons so that we could have the break. yea rite? obviously not. im onli going to skool for one bloody two hours lesson. such a waste of time it is. i seriously think they should just cancel that class. its a talking class and people are supposed to converse in proper english and wad not about english. Latty L just make me feel worse sometimes but although i think she hates me for god knows wad reason but she always gives me a decent high marks for the assesment. so today, just another day for bearing with the Latty L.

Meeting the friday clique later and we shall see what gonna be the hip of the day....i cant wait to see them and i simply miss enigma and the banker...

and obviously NEUTRON KAN!

2008-01-17T00:00:00.000-08:00

the clock tick and its finaly midnite! im jumping like a lunatic fat cheeks bee-yatch again. the folks mite put me down on but who cares it marks the 6 months of the wonderful begining. i never did regret anything and in fact the beautiful fairy tale awaits for its unfoil...i just simply love you. you make my day you gorgeous.

2008-01-13T23:33:00.000-08:00

dear all avid readers of mine. i know i have not been bloggin for the week as i am just too tired....to tired to let my butter fingers rattle across the keyboard and list some logics onto the piece of clear sheet. the week had been fine and ive been smilling alot all because of the Neutron, Enigma, HAney, The chindelellas and the kambings. if it is not becoz of them, i would have drown in the turmoil of emotions that the folks made me swim in...sometimes, people just have to understand others. it might take one way or another.even if u cant understand at the end of the day, at least the effort is there. i hate it wen the folks just instruct and make sure i will bow to their commands without having me to understand the truth behind everything. as hard as a stone my heart will be and nothing will make me change my mind till i know the reason behind it.

the heart jumps in excitment as the song plays and entertains the melancholic soul....

2008-01-06T16:17:00.000-08:00

The Virus has struck again!

okies, this time im super duper sick and everytime i cough i could feel the swelling at my throat and after very meal i have, i would puke. i mean literally vomit out everything i ate. it has been long since i was this sick. todae it has been the third dae and im feeling much better. the unstoppable coughs moments are finally over and i could breathe much better coz my nasal passage ways are no longer blocked!

Since we had planned to have a surprise for the sister, i have decided to prepare myself and make sure i would be better by evening. nevertheless, i panicked wen my fever was running high early in the morning. so the health potion and a lil pick and match of prescribed mixtures and capsule was taken to ease the pain and subside the fever. thank god. finally the day has come to celebrate and enjoy ourselves with indugence of great food thou my tongue could not taste anything except the bitterness of being sick! :)the cake is cute thou and i hope she like the present. :) why not let the pictures do the talking and i shall save my tired butter fingers for tmr load of work....

not to forget, much apologies to my fellow clts for being able to attend the orientation in the morning. i hope it had been a smooth orientation yesterdae. sorie babes... :)

it is a day nice day to chill at home and rest before tmr comes ard.how i wish i could get better and be a healthy kid once again. being sick is no longer a treat to myself to take an off day from a hectic schdule....get me well soon will you? My Neutron has soccer today and i cant make it coz i will probably faint while watching his match...i hope he scores a goal and i cant wait to meet him tmr and thats an IF. im looking forward to tmr for a beautiful day..

2008-01-03T21:03:00.000-08:00

After a whole two weeks of break, its finally time to hit the books again. the term test didnt go well for me as expected. i kinda died off with studying at the last minute so i guess i kinda deserve it. okies. so, the return of test papers always gives butterflies in my stomach. i was supposed to get used to it but unfornately, i didnt.

the day was rather slow and draggy for me. we had four hours break in between since classes/labs/ lectures are cancelled in between when it is supposed to be back to back.what the hell was i supposed to do? count the number of e.coli bacteria cells i can find on the agar plate? So, the slow and draggy day started off hard with HPI. HPI was discusiing about renal physiology and there is HOMEWORK! okies, not exactly, it was more of like look out for answer for this question, explain how hemolysis jaundice occur? there was abit more of explaination of the kidney and their various reaction of exchange of ions in the body. So that is for tonight.

During the four hours break, we(the kambings of TB07) decided to have a food hunt at pizza hut and indulge ourselves with delicious and tender chicken of baked pasta and rice that could make us drool pails after pails during our never ending boring lecture. whatever it is, let the pictures tell us the continuation of heaven feast we had.

Skool ended ard 5pm and i met my NEUTRON! how wonderful! i miss him dearly actuallie and every meets are always looked forward. We stop by the optician to check out the lenses and i will no longer be the blind rodent that keeps on buggin kakak kambing to check out if whatever im writting is similiar to the screen. that is how horrible my eyesight is. goodness gracious me! then, we chilled out as we let our chatters rattle on about the day. now, im missing my honey pumpkins oreadie....

i think that is for now folks. look at the pictures and let ur stomach tickles.

kakak kambing..

Mama kambing

kambing Hitam!

this is how fat diy has become?

MAma Kambing is having constipation thou with a wide smile on her face. :)

i look super idotic with the specs on smack with a slenger smile on my face!

2008-01-01T17:05:00.000-08:00

Not bloggin for days actuallie made my superhero worried about the undefined reasons of why i have decided not to blogged for the period of time. Since it is a new year, a new chapter for everyone and a new begining to everything. much aware that it would be the normal cliche entries that most people would have written or will be writting...

2007 has been a great year i must say. it started with coping with a new job as a retail executive and dealing with fussy and demanding customers. not to mention to the cultural shock of the difference between the two worlds of the working world and the schooling world.then i learnt that you cant depend on people just like how you depend on your best friends or clique back in skool. it is a whole new different thing.social life wen slightly above the average and yupz i started have different friends of different background.in betweens the hectic schedule of mine, i decided to get involved and be part of the nationals. it was fun i must say and learning the steps was a great challenge. proving them that you can do it was much tougher. thank god, friends that come by made it a pleasant journey for me though sometimes you're at the verge of quiting especially after the runs. at the end of april, skool started for me and yes indeed skool made me weep sometimes. after the hectic schdule of ZARA, im lost and occupied with skool which starts at 8am and ends at 6pm almost eveyrday. coping with eveyrthing is a huge challenge and everyday to skool would just be facade just be make me feel beta want to continue with eveyrthing.the lovely smiles of the kambings and cynnthia, not to forget my other classmates make the day a betta one for each day. Spore open gave me the opportunity to made new friends and it was then i found my sister. Enigma and i became such close mates then sisters and since then training has never been a bore. the play times have always been fun and lunatic and make up shopping times have always been a duo. we seem inseparable. Being involve with skool silat gt me to IVP for the first time. Being part of it and making new friends was fun and happie times are remembered. PSK season came by and it was the next big thing in my life. going down for training every other weekends was a chore sometimes but it was then Neutron and me became much closer. it was our first few timid steps to be more than friends. the changing of pass, the action boyfriend-galfriend psk thing, the meals company, the training session mates and many more are some that i could remember. then, it was the first steps to our relationship. The rest of the year went by fine and with much determination to acheieve better results and there are always happie and sad times to be cherish and remember for they are leaning points in life. Friends made are nt forgotten. i reallie miss the chindelellas, the lovables, the yellow house warriors and the lil bits and pieces that i left out and made a difference in me. you guys are missed. :)

resolutions made for 2008 are hoping to be acheieve and i believed in myself that i can do it with much determination. I hope this year will be a much smoother journey for me and hoping not to repeat any mistakes made. Quiting should be an option for quiters and are meant for losers and not me. Smile for everything that will be put upon you and always pray for the best that you can deliver.

Aniwei,

Happie Birthday To ENigma!
the Beloved sister,the friend, the company, the next big thing to my every essential that i need. I hope you have a great burfdae this year and best wishes in future endeavours. Smile for your smiles take away all troubles.

2007-12-25T11:08:00.000-08:00

the plead for a ray of hope have been fulfilled.im smillin and things are much betta.now that its over, we laugh over the fact how we ended up in that hysterical moment of tormented emotions. im relieved. thank you enigma for being there and banker for believing. we're fine.

cant you see my big and wide smile? hahah.

after drained of tears and the one and only sleepless nite, the friday clique decided to pay a visit HotBigButt at the hosp. hes fine now and smilling coz things are goin hes way. im happie for you. we chattered our visit away and after an hour or 2, we left for lunch. to ease my burnt soft jelly-like heart, we indulge ourselves with the delicious treats of secret recipe. wad a feast i must say. laughters and expose of details extra information are given! haha. now i know your secrets! hahah.

finally, after the many days, you gt your attention return to you. i could see it in your eyes and im so happie to see you. i miss you baby. i miss you so much! now i cant wait for tmr and spent the day with you after the brefing at CGH. hahaz. it is only a day away....

Merry Chrstmas!
its christmas and this year's gathering is so called postponed to the 27th in conjuction to celebrate mama jit's burfdae.once again, there will be log cake, big turkey,devil's curry and many more to make drool over. nevertheless im still having fun at home todae with the fat gobules and we are on a movie marathon for chirstmas!
lastly, HAPPIE BURFDAE GRANNY! May you get better and try to live healthy everyday, will you? jgn langgar pantang lagie eh?

2007-12-24T06:18:00.000-08:00

a rollercoaster of emotions it had ben for me. i could smile for the second and went hysterical the next moment.i dunoe if wad im doing is rite. im lost in wateva that im stuck in between. tears in large gobules rolled down when the other's voice was at its peak...tears starts to stream down wen i hear nothing but silence. everything is killing me. im lost in emotions.the nite had been sleepless and i hope the bright sunshine will plant hope and let me smile for the moment.

i reallie nid you
i miss you soo much
soo much and too dear
iloveu. :)

2007-12-23T19:04:00.000-08:00

I'm hurt.
I'm confused
I'm Lost.

im lost in everything that is happening. yesh, i admit it is my fault but things don't have to be this way. you don't have to say that to make me feel worse. i hate it wen this happen. even if you didnt like what i was doing, you could have put it in a better way. for the moment, u make me feel a distance. Bottomline,you made a scratch in me.

now, i understand. im your BIG-Mouthed _______________. sorie. thanx.

i miss you so much.Sniiffing your sweater don't make me feel any better.
i need my man.

Enigma, i Cant wait for tmr.
HotBigButt, get well soon. i see you tmr. :)

2007-12-20T10:35:00.000-08:00

a mixture of feelings
a Turmoil revolving
im not angry, never was
i dont think i will be
but im sure Mr Green Jealousy has engulfed my soul

You know my weakness and pint it there
i want to continue to live in those happie days of yesterdaes and cater to my man.
i love my man and nothing will change that

Ola! Slmat Hari raya To you Guys Too. :)

2007-12-18T21:30:00.000-08:00

it was a beautiful day...

yes, indeed it was fun. although the da flagged off with lab in skool but still we found ways to entertained our boring scientist self. we had the company and so the brains of many dealt with the different cheeky ideas of the different ways of coping so that we all would pass the post lab tests together. altogether, there were 3 and i think im gonna do well since i went through the answers i gt from the last semester last nite.

i ended quite early, in fact,2 hrs ahead of schedule. isnt that good?My beloved pickd me up at the interchange and we headed to Siam for the lil chill pill with HotBigButt and pretty cheeks. We chill and yes yes we did. talked about everything under the sun. Met DN couple after a lo0000ng time. everything seems fine and im thankful for that. we spent a lil longer with HotBigButt and he made me realised many things that i feel i had overseen. he made me realised how much a guy would do and will go the extra mile for the one he loves and everything is so sweet when you're at the valley of love heaven. you live on a bed of roses and nothing else you will see except her. He made me realised how much im being loved and how sweet the days has been for me. Thank You HOtBigButt! You know wad, i believe in the twist of fate wen it comes to this. i know somehow deep down inside her, there is a huge space for you and will always remain for you coz no one else will replace such a romantic guy like you that made a mark in her life.She will be yours one day.I love you BigButt and i will always be here for you. so is my neutron! :)

Neutron, i love you always and nothing shall replace you in this small red pumping heart of mine. You match no man on earth to had poured me and keep pouring me with soo much love and care. No one would engulf my puny self with so much love besides you who had been there for me all this months. Your little things just make my day and without you a day, i went crazy and i know you know that. You know every little thing about me. i just simply love you since the first time we met. Nothing will fade that love away.

now the whole lot of a different story. i just needed a space to vent the anger. the raging anger that has been pilling in me. it is about IT. IT that gt my soul into raged, my heart in a boiling soup and almost had my temper headwired! You made me change my perspective of you. You made me not believe you anymore. You made me feel betrayed. You made me feel dumb and stoopid to be there wen at the end of the day the arrow was going to point a US but not yourself i realie wonder why everything is going this way? why arrows are pointed everywhere but not you when you are the real culprit behind everything. No one said a word except you. now, i want nothing less than the truth known to everyone that WE are not wrong and you gt us involved. The root of everything is no one else but you. yourself. Please. i beg of you for the truth should be known and we shall be free.

2007-12-17T08:42:00.000-08:00

Its the 5th month today!
im smiling and smiling like a crazy lil lunatic bee-yatch running around the house and trying to spread the joy across the room. I'm getting the connection...
Yesh! I finally gt a reply!
My baby knows im suoer duper crazyly in love with him and he is in love with me too. The smile got twice larger and much much wider.....
Now, Im gloating like a puffer fish and almost lifted from the ground and floating in the air! :)

The friday clique is let lose again todae. :)

I cant wait to meet my Neutron... Muackz!

2007-12-13T20:28:00.000-08:00

it is a sparkling day today.
all smiles and laughter could be heard at any point of the room because the day is a sunny day today. besides it being a sunny day today, finally i could see a smile from daddy round face. He is ecstatic that finally one of his athletes had finally clinched the gold medal and the other one is bringing home the bronze medal. Maybe the results are not up to expectations but at least someone from the sport brings that goldie home. maybe it is just not our game this time but im sure the team will have a comeback the subsequent Seagames. Anyway, congratulations to Abg fili and Kak Shikeen for the victory.

since there wasnt any paper today, im left to rot at home and study till my eyeballs pop! how cool is that? Being at home means you're left with the housechores and what nots. damn, i hate it whenever mummy leaves me with the chores at home. i need more energy to withstand the ultimate boring content of my lectures notes of both Maths stats 1 as well as organic chemistry. So, i cleared the house fast and waited for loverboy to pick me up at the palace before leaving for tampines to some alteration to skirt for saturday's meeting and had late lunch as well as made some time to go down to the library and spent some time with my lecture notes since the fat gobules has the big urge to irritate me whenever im having some quality time with the notes.
before i know it, neutron and fat gobule had made plans and met up so i ended up not studying and instead was entertaining to their nonsense. we were talking about everything under the sun and i was laughing till i couldnt hold my bladder any longer! thank god, i didnt pee there and then. thank you Mr bladder! :)

nw,typing away at home gives me the extra space to breathe in betweens the time with books, neutron, fat gobules,the sista and the other nonsenses that have always been occupying the every bit of my life.these people are well loved and nothing will replaced their insanity and lovable character. okies, i reallie sound as though im giving my last speech before i die and i think i need the quality time with the notes right now. wish me luck for tmr...

the lil princess and daddy-in-training are missed! how cute! :)

2007-12-12T21:13:00.000-08:00

she super gorgeous! i fell in love with her instantly! :)

okies. im not turning lesbian after watching the L word. Enigma, i think i need more of The L Word to feed my curiousiy in the episodes ahead in season 1 and 2 and i tink im gonna be addicted. so baby, sorie if attention not given. :) no matter wad i still love you... hahahz. you're my hero!

morning papers are always bliss. it gives me a happie start of a cheerful day if the paper is a manageble one. today's paper was okies.im praying hard that i can clear all subjects well. insyallah. so after the paper, im left with nothing so the beloved hero picked me up and we had breakfast at the usual corner of our all time favourite,shareholder-business partner restaurant, Long John's silver.hahah. then we called up enigma and headed down to woodlands to meet the beloved. let the pictures do the talking about the fun fun outing to enigma's cosy crib.

the future daddy training..

isnt she adorable?

Look! The daddy in action while we are camwhoring! hahah.

there's one thing about this lil princess. she loves the training daddy and wil keep quiet whenever he is handling her but she will start her cute cries whenever i carry her. hahaz. So, both enigma and me created some heartwarming love poem for her as she look into daddy in traning 's eyes and fell into a deep sleep. hahaz. she super adorable and the first line i said was meant for her. hahahz. lil charming pretty princess.

we left and hoped onto a bus and here i am typing away and soon i will indulge myself with no more chocolates but books for tmr's paper. :)

Hero,hero...why cant we be like in the movies? lets ride a white horse and have a romatic nite walk by the beach after a splendid dinner prepared by you? hmmm....can we? plz...

2007-12-11T23:30:00.000-08:00

the day just past in a click!
everything happen so fast and i found myself not studying by the time i reached home since i was drop dead tired! :) Okies. the morning test was fine i shud say, praying real hard that i would score for it. follwed by a ridiculous checking for errors CSAS 2 test which i feel is utter nonsense coz all my life i have never been asked to do something ridiculously stoopid. it is like underestimating ur intelligence. how adsurb!

So the paper ended at 2pm and then i was flying high with My darling neutron. we had fun walking all around tam-pines and i found a new shop named SPLIT! okies. they are selling realli nice T-shirts and i feel its a good buy! so shopping here i come soon after passing through this huge hinderance of mine.hahahz. So the chindellelas met up and we went for Ma'am RIa's POP! finally, after the a long year of waiting, she finally able to acheive her dream and be a clt just like of us. hahahz. im super happie for her and wish all the best in future endeavours.

my head starts to feel heavy and i think i should get readie for a landing on the most comfortable elevated bed in the world. Nitez.

Neutron! iloveyou! :)

to someone you, bumping into you again is a pleasant thing. seeing u smile makes me smile coz i know you're much happier if wateva u're doing. i just hope smiles would always fill your days and catching soon would be an option.... :) wish you happie days. :):)

2007-12-07T09:17:00.000-08:00

You're are baby love, baby love
You make the sun come out
Oh BOy..
you're my every every every things i could ever dream off...

okies. im down rite panickin for some space to breathe. im too caught up and packed with skool since term test is coming around like next week. goodness me, im seriously im super panickin coz there are super lot to study and shuts! im not done yet. todae im skipping the morning lecture which will onli be for an hour coz it is going to leave me with a 3 hours break after that! holy cow! wad am i supposed to do. so i decided to hop to skoool at 2 for BMIc tut then im done for the day. im mite be spending the other half of the day studying with neutron since hes have a paper on monday. exams. exams. exams. i hate it when its time for exams! :)

wateva it is, im super set to strived for good results! :)
and
so is darlx Neutron! :)

The days are mostly spent in skool and Neutron. so sometimes after a long day of skool, neutron will pick me up and have dinner. hahahz. dinner place is not specific since its all around tam-pines and these times are always LOVED! :)

now, im gonna bottled up myself with books and lectures notes. Let the jinnie in will you! :) Adious. :)

2007-12-04T23:50:00.000-08:00

THe day is here. no more waiting for wednesdae. i've finally gt the it! hahahz. gleaming with joy i am and now my sleepness nites are over coz i have finaly gt what i wanted. everything seems to be complete for the moment of time.scrollin down and scrowling up. checking out this and that. kinda gt busy for the period till i gt all figured out. the hero didnt get much of my attention coz i think i was to caught up and engrossed with IT. I'm sorie baby:)

the day was spent wisely i guess. okies.Neutron wanted to spent time so we decided to go somewhere far away like TOwn. hahah. okies. we gt ourselves hook onto the train and dropped off at TOWN.it was a happy happy time thing all the way. we walked all around and laughed like we own the world. you made me feel like there was no one else in the world with me except you.you made me feel special and i love you even more and more each day.we ease the growling of the capacious stomach with LJS and we walked around again and laugh about pedang and pedang joke.(our inside joke)
then, the round one called up and wanted to meeet up to get IT. as delighted as i was, i called up fat gobule and arranged a meet up at 7pm. Neutron gt slightly angry but was okie after that.we left and now im home with IT.

Hurricane and thunder came for awhile in the mid of everything and things was better after that. i was relieved but there is this guilty conscious feeling spreading throughout my entire body. every now and then green eyed jealousy man engulfed my entire soul and has control over everything and the next moment i was in rage.im not sure what im going thru but wad i am certainly aware off is the unstable emotions. i cant control it and i feel so weak for letting it to take control of myself and let me flew into rage before i could fall into his arm and say "iloveu!"

Nothing in the world means more than you do. you're simply loved and cherished every second of the day. nothing will change my perspective of you, for you will always be my knight in shinny amour. i love you sooo much. im sorie. im just being over sensitive and i know i shouldnt. ILOVEU.

2007-12-03T22:50:00.000-08:00

wad a beautiful day. less work done and more fun in betweens.. so cool. i just simply love today thou there was a spoilt ending to it. nyehh... its okie. im gt over it anyway and im gettin IT on WEdnesday. so i felt much better but kida less excitement coz it gt killed at the climax just now wen THEY said i cant apply for one. Goodness me! my heart stop pumping for the minute of time and the eardrums burst and there go the excitement running away from the lively ecstatic soul. im cool. im cool.now, its a so wait for wednesday thing.

skool started super late for me todae at ard 12pm. okies not so late actually. so gt up ard 9am and ring Neutron. hes on study leave. so hes free from timetable! then i roam around the house like a hungry soul to feed the extended space in my stomach till it reaches the brim then i lazy enuff to get readie for skool. like the every other day, im always late and i was late again todae. this time kambing HITAM gt angry for 2 mins and then he started laughing like G0DZILLA.hahah. 2 hours after that im done with skool so i left for a chill out time cum MOVIE with Neutron. he picked me up and we left for Tam-pines for the chill. we walked around and have a the get HIGH chocolate drink from coffee bean then to BAgels at starbuck. that was when thunder and lightning struck for abt an hour or so till the movie started at 5pm. The movie was kinda cool and nice.All about uncompleted rituals and it leads to something...and it goes on. bottomline, it is worth paying for the movie, The TAtooist. Met up with puny plum and the round one to check out IT and like i said it was a excitement KIller. nevertheless, im till geting IT by wednesday. yohoo...cant wait. cant wait!

im stomach is growling again and im hungry at this hour but the irony is, im losing lot of weight for no EEFing reason. hmmm. wad a contradiction. nevermind. its feeding time baby.

i'm sorie. i know i should not have said and done that but i guess it was all out of jealousy. somethings just provoked me to do so. no matter wad, you're still the apple of my eye and nothing is goin to change that. i love you sooo much. will that do? *chuckles*

2007-12-02T19:43:00.000-08:00

im sorie.
i dunnoe wad is wrong with me.
im just an irritating sensitive pest todae...

maybe the boredom that grew in me throughout the day affected that nerve in my body that made me react in such a way....

or mayb..
i just miss YOU.

i promise i shall be your lil girl tmr. :)